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here is a damn interesting blog in my point of view... gotta check it out, its abt a guy who screwed her sister's wife and now, complications started and blah blah blah, sister going through divorce.. like real life drama movie... a few interesting line from it though:
"Example: nancy. I don't want her because I am not attracted to her. She is not my type. She is pale, cold and skinny with weak morals. She has always short straight hair. She has bad skin. No full lips. All no, no's. Yet I have somehow convinced myself that I am attracted to her and want her for long term. There is a difference between a man wanting to fuck and being genuinely attracted to her. Most men will fuck anything decent. True attraction is different; it is long lasting"
"I am strong. Fucking strong! What I have been through would break most. I know no one and no thing that can break me all at once. The hate for myself has a hammer and a chisel and it has been steadfast since I was eight years old.
So why the self-hate? Let's take a wild fucking guess!"
"am realizing that nancy and her husband have been cheating on each other for years. They have only been married for 11 but I know for a fact that she has been fucking around for at least eight years and he has never been faithful to her. I can't believe how naive I can be at times. I don't know why it bothers me that she fucks around or does drugs or dances with other guys. I feel like if she is divorcing me. I feel like I am going through a break-up. I hate it. I want to stop thinking about her. Her own sister who loves her and the kids more than I do doesn't lose sleep over the whole situation"
"I saw her today. She is going to get a divorce. The kids were sad but I try to cheer them up. She hugged me but she tapped me on my shoulder when she did. Maybe I hugged her a bit too long. Nevertheless I hate when women tap me on the should when I hug them. "- aint this funny? lol, i thought only movies got such things.. lolx
sympathy does goes with him, but i can help but laugh the way he uses words and stuff.. haha..
http://noahpictures.blogspot.com/
Andry at 2:24 PM today i rememebr someone, somehow the receptionist remind me of a girl.. a girl who comforted me when i was really sad.. somehow both gave me the same feeling.. i dun knoe how to really say, and now thinking back, i remmeber how poor i was at tht time, and she was like poor with me, and its like yeah, she taught me to cook stuff, like spagattie and we had sort of a fling for a few days...
thinking back of which, i remmeber talking to her online, and she was saying, wah, seems like the restuarant u had at your frenster pic looks expensive... i dun remmeber replying anything i suppose or was it jus a smiley?... but then, suddenly i think abt it, i think i should ask her out and like treat her something nice... now tht i am better off, i should be doing some good deed man.. i mean, this is not exactly a good deed, or giving sympathy to her, but it jus sort of reminds me of who i was and wad i am... and its like i can understand the position she is in...
the position, the feeling, the i dun knoe how u wan to say it.. i knoe how i felt when i was poor, and i can only imagine the feeling of helpless in her in a way...
i mean, wad am i trying to achieve by treating her something nice? i dun think there is anything to achieve, jus tht somehow, something jus tells me its the right thing to do... ya.... i think i should do it....
maybe afterall, sometimes u jus dun forget your roots. the people, the one tht was there for u in times of need, and those who casted u away when u were nothing..... they will be remembered.
Andry at 5:07 PM ::being john malkovich::
*wrongly spelling
watched the movie "elephant" a couple of days ago..... its a vey slow paced movie abt the 2 high sch student shootings..
watching the show, it was somewhat shown in a way of every people from their point of view... and watching it, made me realised somethings...
its like, each of us, looking at the world, only from our angle, i dun knoe if yer get wad i mean... its like, sometimes u say, u understand how the person feels, tht is only because u gone through it, and its from your shoes, and u assume tht wad he went through is somewaht the same... but then, in truth wad everyone went through is different man.. the level of emotions is different.. and its realli nice if one can posses another and live the life that they go through.. yer kneo wad i mean? sometimes i wonder, how does my roomate look at things? how does he feel when he sees me looking at me here typing my blog, and maybe he thinks, wtf, blogging again? i dunch knoe man.. haha...
i feel my life is boring man, but come to think abt it, everyone also says their life is somewaht boring... yeah, i think so 2... and i jus have to look around and ask myself, wad can make me feel alive? well, i guess love and for me personally, it would be earning lots of money! yeah.. that is something tht can make me feel great... really... if yer were to ask me to work 9 2 5 earning 1500 a month... well, i think, i will feel pathetic man.. i guess for me, either i mus have love, or be successful to feel alive... i often imagine to myself, lets say i buy prada, LV, wadever fuk goods la, power car, will i feel good? the answer tht came is a no. i jus still will feel empty... its like, jus say if i earn a lot of money, will i be happy because i can buy all the crap shit? nope, i dun think so.. i guess i will feel happy because of the satisfactation in earning lots of money..
dun knoe if yer readers catch the dirft though. =).. ciaoz...
Andry at 11:40 AM sometime events make u lose yourself in a certain way.. but today, somehow my faith in myself have renewed... i wun go much into wad happened, but jus say, something good really hapeen.... yeah...=)
hmm...
i am starting to see light in the dark tunnel... perhaps god have finaly decided to answer to my prayers... finally.. =)
Andry at 12:08 AM ::welcome to the human race::
jus found out my sister has got a new bf... well, wad can i say? and the previous bf was abt 1 month plus ago...
i really dun knoe man...
its like, theorically speaking, this is sluty(and as i write this, i believe some of yer will be offended)... but yet each having their own reason.. so wad now? its really confusing... so u think i should join in the fun and fuk around? jus fuk and throw?...
its like each day getting worse and worse as every story i hear man, maybe afterall my ideas of a relationship is jus kinda too idealistic.. yer knoe wad i mean?.. its like i used to say, wah the girl damn sluty, neh neh neh.. then nowadays i hear all these shit,i am like.. okayyy, standard!... season already.. yeah...
and if relationships are so unstable, i guess tht is why being successful is even more essential.. cause i think u knoe true love, i doubt it exist anymore yeah... but i think wad can be really nice is, a girl tht go through with you thick and thin, and when u are successful, u will realise tht the girl was there for yer all the way.. and tht is so sweet yeah...=).. i can only envy those who have this kind of girls, cause apparently, i dun see any girls, not even one tht is like tht anymore man... one way or the other, practicallity will set in.. my theory though.
well, i am no angel myself, but yet when i do some fuked uped things, i do feel guilty, do these people ever felt any? in any way?
never bastard a guy whom has a girl, and chase the girl.. tht was my principal man, and it still stays deep within me, but then again, i think maybe afterall, i am doing it myself for the first time with my knowlegde wad i am doing.. so guess wad guys,theorically speaking i am a bastard yeah? haha.. but i still dun thnk i bastard lehz... lol... so how? heh or is my case exceptional cause i like the girl for so long already? hmm.. dun knoe la..
guess wad, this litta boy here is confused.....
Andry at 11:48 AM soooo....
today i kena suck in nice nice... was not suppose to go to "P.I.M.P"(smu bash at devil's bar) cause apparently i am super duper tired.. but then, yer kneo wad, gal pal called up and wanted to go.. so well, ok la, jus go la.. fuking best part is... go home straight, after tht quickly do my iap report, and then slp for 1 or 2 hours(yeah, i need the rest) then head down to devils bar... and thts not all, i still have to do my "part time job"... yeah, so u can imagine after work still darn busy...haha..
enuff of clubbing man.. like i think i club 3 time for the past 14 days!! wth.... though i mus admit tht the last time i club, it felt like ages ago.. hmm... guess wad- wadever! lol
u are P.I.M.P! lolx..
*geez, come to think abt it, i should be the one saying to myself.. haha
Andry at 5:03 PM ::ah lians/ah bengs do grow up::
haha, i was reading this survey at frenster bulletin.. my super duper ah lian fren, the answers, yeah, it impress me for an ah lian.. seems like after all they do grow up 2... haha... can see tht nowadays seems like expectations jus drop yeah.. no more looking for mr perfect.. haha...
same thing here, no more... there aint any perfect people.. yeah... jus gotta learn to accept.. i guess its the biggest challenge in a relationship, tht is learn to accept la... yep =)...
anyway, i tell ya, i am freaking tired now... and tonight, i bet ya, first thing when i reach home, bath and zzzzz... cause tomolo still got "P.I.M.P"!!... tht is the smu bash, i dun knoe of i should be going though..see how la, trying to budget my expenses though.. geez...
and my fren, haha, trying to hitch me up with a girl called jasmine..lol.. wadssup.. according to them, she is sweet looking.. haha.. okayyy, we'll see abt it, who knoes i might find her interesting yeah? =P...
Andry at 11:33 AM jus realised tht the previous blog, its stated on a friday.. actually it supposed to be on a saturday midnihgt... jus tht i click "edit" for my previous nonsense blog(which i never published).. and i thought i could jus overwrite and kill 2 birds with one stone...
but seems like i have been proved wrong.. haha.. =)
Andry at 9:36 PM i am really tired now... has been really busy with so much stuff.. and past 4/5 days had abt a total of 20 hours slp... yeah, have to admit tht i having my pms now... my frens jus wen for supper and current cant take it, so staying at home and chill out..=).. as much as i am tired now, shall do a full blog today, somehow, i find peace in this.. =)
today me and my frens/business partners to sports concil(ok, i dun knoe how to spell)... the presentation and stuff, i must say, the interviewer were really super duper impress with our project. =)... in fact it even got to the point where they offer to help us to get a piece of land for us. we are starting some sports court thingy(in 6 months time, u will see it coming, and tht will be a success i tell ya).=)... at first our location would be warehouse at kallang area, but guess wad, they have a better alternative for us.. its at thomson road, jus beside police acedamy.. u knoe the empty land jus in front of singtel which is a carpark now, yeah, they are willing to lease the land and give us the privilege for it.. its totally a perfect venue...lazy to go to details, but everything was so feasible... everything went well, more then perfect i suppose.. i would say i am really please with the interview...
and due to the amazing presentation we did, one of the member even offered us an opportunity to organise an under 14 soccer league touronment for the holidays, and SSC(singapore sports concil) will be part of our sponsership. 5-10k sgd funds at our deposible if we decided to take the offer. =).. all my mates are not interested in it, but i am seriously interested in doing his project, not only will i gain so much from the experience, i will also have something to do before my feb trip to overseas to get my degree, not to mention tht the resume will look good 2..=).. its more like event organisor.. =).. i am looking at 3k profit at the end of the whole event..=).. i dun knoe if its 2 much or 2 little to ask for as its my first though... but it really interest me.. its gonna be hard, but then, its interesting man..
i also found out, i am not really good at talking the formal way, and with this incoming event, hopefully i can learn how to negotiate better...
so anyway, after the meeting, went to paradiz t play pool.. my frens wnet to play pool whereas i went to play arcade... haha..yeah...
anyway, there is something tht is bothereing me though.. tht is, my finace..
it is worry because of the money i am spending, i think this week, i have spend abt 250++ dolars... and the thing is my income is not covering my expense u see... tht is the problem, of course i have my own savings, but if jus based on direcnt income alone, my savings will dimish... and for tht i think i should think of ways to cut cost man.. yeah...
i guess, now my life is taking a turn, a good turn and mainly this project is giving me a sense of achievement... and if everything goes well, i tell ya, my studies in australia, haha, i will be enjoying and partying big time, cause i am gonna be rich!!! haha... though not the stage of car yet...
can u imagine, i 21yrs old, fuking managing director of a big time project... i knoe u migh think its navie and doesnt sound feasible, haha...he was complating tht if only he was 30 years old younger, he would be doing this enterprenuer thingy, not once he mention, but more than once he somehow lament on himself!!haha... i guess he is envying us!! yeah, thts the way it should be!! *blea*
ok, enuff of ego talk, i feel good and proud, so i shall share..
anyway, goodnight readers, wish me luck everything will go out smoothly ya.. ;)
Andry at 12:04 AM opps, geez, put the wrong song for the previous blog.. wth.. haha.. anyway, this is the correct song la..=)...
jus cam back from chalet, too mc today, drank quite a bit(i am a bad drinker, really, and my quite a bit is like 2 cups of vodka raspberry? and a few bee la.. not drunk but jus kinda high la, and jus slp there and started calling people..hehe)... anway, later heading down to zouk again, hopefully tomolo can wakey in time for my work, if not i kena fuk nice nice already.. haha....
fuked uped life:
seriously, i hate my life now, i dun like to drink and neither do i like to club extensively.. i knoe its unbelievable, i dun like to smoke intensively, maybe a day 3-4 sticks jus nice? but seems like i am doing all the things i dun like extensively for the past 2 months? everytime kena suck in.. see la, 2 more days my fren bday, see if i will kena suck in.. we'll wait and see.... ya, and next week tuesday, got smu bash at devil's bar, and this is my close fren grp going, so i have to go right?.. so now u knoe, the word used is...... SUCKED IN!!!
some thoughts:
today, as me and my fren was gonna buy some food from the market, suddenly i jus told him, u knoe after wad happen last time, i seldom really go to eat hawker food in a way anymore cause somehow its of no class la..(actually dun knoe where the hell i am getting at la).. but anyway, the thing is, well,he told me tht when his supervisor got promoted, the big timer in the company told his supervisor, dun eat in food court already, try to eat in resturant.... due to social class....
it is sad tht the hard facts of life sometimes jus is so real.. i dun understand wadsup with all these things man.. and of course i must also admit tht i have been sometimes also steorotype people la, but then again.. haiz, dun knoe man.. its jus sad.. =/...
talk abt social class...
CB, wassup man, last week fri my fren bday, yesterday my another fren bday, and 2 days time my another fren bday..
Andry at 7:39 PM well, maybe a sign of relief for my readers, well, i think i have to let go of sherie.. maybe its kinda shocking to many people tht i still like in a way cannot get over her.. well, today the desicion is made. =)..... its sad when i think back of the past man.. some of the memories tht are still vivid in my mind.. ya... walks along adam roads, the beach, east coast feeding fishes/ducks, all the funny things tht happen, all the nonsense things, yeah, u knoe, when u young u tend to do lots of nonsense things.. 1 year 7 months is a looog time, depends how u actually look at it, in a way, i will still say i feel very attached to her, in a way i saw her grow up by the years la.. ya... but come to think abt it, its the past man.. funny tht i stayed in my hostel for 7/8 years but yet i didnt feel particularly sad abt it.
really decided for real now, so u guys gotta give me support ok!?! i think u guys should be happy for me instead because finally i can move on! yes!
no more waiting, waited long enuff man... guess patience is the virtue of men, but then u knoe wads funny, yesterday on my way back from sentosa i have already been thinking abt letting go, and its like and then me and my fren we have always been telling each other to always wait until a day.. and then yesterday my reply to him wad, hey dun wait anymore, if yer let go, i think slowly u will feel better.. and immediately i can see the disappointment in the face.. it jus reminds me of how i looked when my frens tell me to let go.. its like a carbon copy of me.. i guess morever the effect tht i always used to support him, then now telling him to let go, its really demoralising... well, wad can i say, i am here also gonna try hard to let go, maybe this is my first time tht i gonna do it, so there is a tendency to be harder la.. =) u guys knoe wad i mean man.. my fren asked me yesterday while we were chilling out at the beach, why today never talk abt sherie? haha.. well, maybe after all the steps is slowly taken.. slowly man.. =).. and i am sure sherie if she reads this, she will be happy to knoe tht i have decided to let go.. =).. well, its really sad for my side here la, i dun knoe why, but i guess its a step tht i need to take if i want to enjoy my life. suffering for a year is no joke..
well, no matter wad, there are some things tht will be deep in my heart forever though.. she is the first, the mother, the angel, the love, the one, the everything.. =).. but well, its over and time to find my next angel. i must have faith. i cannot give up.. =)... when i was with my second, well, i learnt something 2, afterall i can actually feel for another girl although it was not tht strong, but it could be felt.. =).. so there is hope afterall.. i knoe it.. andry u can do it man!!
yeah baby, yeah!!
Andry at 10:22 PM
time for a new look! yeahz, slowly though.. =P..
Andry at 1:13 AM my dad is 61 years old this year.. and for the past few years, i dun think i have communicated with him properly.. like, never call him and stuff... he is getting old, and i guess *touch wood* it is at an age anything can happen to him... so today i will make a resolution, tht is to call my dad at least once a week, but if can, then twice a week... afterall, so much has been put into me(of course including my brother ans sis).. its time to pay back some gradtitue... yeah, i dun wan to wait until too late and regret for not spending enuff time canre and concern... =)
Andry at 2:32 PM hmm... a quick blog here.. seems like nowadays realli busy with lots of stuff man.. gonna go for seminar with citibank after work with my fren and hopefully able to get my job after i grad, and yeah, still have to do "surveys" by friday! and my report! and some fuking problems in my life.. haiz.. full of crap man.. tomolo, still have to meet my teacher for lunch, and after tht, got suck in by my teacher to go back to sch for some stuff, which in the first place i dun think i need anymore, but jus like kena suck in.. like my teacher pestering me and stuff.. damn.. after tht, tomolo i need to get to my hairdresser again, i think its too long and its realy hard for me to comb, gonna ask them to touch up!.. hmm.. full of stuffs... no more "free" days anymore!!... haha..
fuk, my mp3 jus died on me, like 5 secs ago.. damn..
anyway, gtg liao.. caizo
Andry at 5:10 PM today i have smoked only a stick... now thinking should i buy my next pack of cigarettes.... if i buy, it will last me till thursday... but then.. should i, or should i not.. ite really damn boring in the office man.... damn... and if i dun buy, i wont smoke, thts what i knoe... hmm.. *thinking hard*
cant be bothered to blog muched today la.. ciaoz...
read abt an article abt casino.. u knoe wad, seriously, casino is the worst from of gambling!! its really no chance.. at least if ya bet soccer, it is against another people judgemnt, so its not so bad, but casino, haha.. really no chance given!!!
will be writting a small article soon abt why one should never ever play casino man.. ya.. ciaoz.
::update::
my fren is interested in this girl, and its like u knoe, he kinda more into the decent kind la.. and he's pretty close to the girl, guess wad, the girl had a std... only jus he found out.. yeah, and top of tht, it was from a one night stand and all along he thought she was nice girl.. haha...
wads happening to the world... yeah.. i think sooner or later i gonna get sucked in.. its like days after days i hear stories like tht, and it really makes me feel like, u knoe what? lets jus fuck around. it doesnt matter anymore ya..
for now, i guess the decency still somewhere here inside me man.
my fren debating with me tht std is forever in the body and u can only surpress it, not kill it.. i think he is being ridiculous and we kinda debating.. am i right or am i wrong?
Andry at 3:23 PM currently at my home, waiting for 3 pm to come before my gang of frens gonna reach here to discuss my "world class" business plan.. muhahaah.. well, hopefully its gonna be world class- =P... at the mean time, 2 more hours to go, but i tell ya, its like i feel so lonely man... its been kinda long since i actually felt this way... wadever, ciaoz.
:update:
one hour has jus passed, haha, thanks to my dear fren for acompanying me.. =)... well, jus finish cleaning the fish, or rather one goldfish in my fish tank..haha.. it was supposed to be used as a companionship for the dragon fish, but apparently, the dragon fish died! and so in the end i am growing a goldfish!..hehe, and i swaer it has grwon in size! haha.. ciaoz, time for lunch. =P
Andry at 1:51 PM somewhere in the singapore map, one dot occupies this place. and let me guess, the one place with a bunch of iodiotic guys, compromise of teddy bears, robocops, mr 69, commando, and as the name suggest, a flying knight(sky knight~~ ok i am suppose to make them believe tht u can fly.. =P.. ahhaha), has like 5/6 hours break on thursdays, and nothing to do, then coming to "never11.blogspot.com" for entertainment purpose, hoping to find some saucy news as usual, and then gonna laugh yer way off with all the crap comments, most importantly a tool to make sure when i meet up with them, as i will be starting my story telling, one will quickly pull out a black sad boring face and say ," i already knoe, u have blogged it" ... and then i will be saying," aiya, at least others still dun knoe.. =P " ....
HAHA, welcome guys!! eh special greeting for yer guys! LEM rocks dudes(yeah right, lol)!!
but one question though... the nasi lemak in adam road nice? =P
Andry at 9:36 AM
"Example: nancy. I don't want her because I am not attracted to her. She is not my type. She is pale, cold and skinny with weak morals. She has always short straight hair. She has bad skin. No full lips. All no, no's. Yet I have somehow convinced myself that I am attracted to her and want her for long term. There is a difference between a man wanting to fuck and being genuinely attracted to her. Most men will fuck anything decent. True attraction is different; it is long lasting"
"I am strong. Fucking strong! What I have been through would break most. I know no one and no thing that can break me all at once. The hate for myself has a hammer and a chisel and it has been steadfast since I was eight years old.
So why the self-hate? Let's take a wild fucking guess!"
"am realizing that nancy and her husband have been cheating on each other for years. They have only been married for 11 but I know for a fact that she has been fucking around for at least eight years and he has never been faithful to her. I can't believe how naive I can be at times. I don't know why it bothers me that she fucks around or does drugs or dances with other guys. I feel like if she is divorcing me. I feel like I am going through a break-up. I hate it. I want to stop thinking about her. Her own sister who loves her and the kids more than I do doesn't lose sleep over the whole situation"
"I saw her today. She is going to get a divorce. The kids were sad but I try to cheer them up. She hugged me but she tapped me on my shoulder when she did. Maybe I hugged her a bit too long. Nevertheless I hate when women tap me on the should when I hug them. "- aint this funny? lol, i thought only movies got such things.. lolx
sympathy does goes with him, but i can help but laugh the way he uses words and stuff.. haha..
http://noahpictures.blogspot.com/
Andry at 2:24 PM today i rememebr someone, somehow the receptionist remind me of a girl.. a girl who comforted me when i was really sad.. somehow both gave me the same feeling.. i dun knoe how to really say, and now thinking back, i remmeber how poor i was at tht time, and she was like poor with me, and its like yeah, she taught me to cook stuff, like spagattie and we had sort of a fling for a few days...
thinking back of which, i remmeber talking to her online, and she was saying, wah, seems like the restuarant u had at your frenster pic looks expensive... i dun remmeber replying anything i suppose or was it jus a smiley?... but then, suddenly i think abt it, i think i should ask her out and like treat her something nice... now tht i am better off, i should be doing some good deed man.. i mean, this is not exactly a good deed, or giving sympathy to her, but it jus sort of reminds me of who i was and wad i am... and its like i can understand the position she is in...
the position, the feeling, the i dun knoe how u wan to say it.. i knoe how i felt when i was poor, and i can only imagine the feeling of helpless in her in a way...
i mean, wad am i trying to achieve by treating her something nice? i dun think there is anything to achieve, jus tht somehow, something jus tells me its the right thing to do... ya.... i think i should do it....
maybe afterall, sometimes u jus dun forget your roots. the people, the one tht was there for u in times of need, and those who casted u away when u were nothing..... they will be remembered.
Andry at 5:07 PM ::being john malkovich::
*wrongly spelling
watched the movie "elephant" a couple of days ago..... its a vey slow paced movie abt the 2 high sch student shootings..
watching the show, it was somewhat shown in a way of every people from their point of view... and watching it, made me realised somethings...
its like, each of us, looking at the world, only from our angle, i dun knoe if yer get wad i mean... its like, sometimes u say, u understand how the person feels, tht is only because u gone through it, and its from your shoes, and u assume tht wad he went through is somewaht the same... but then, in truth wad everyone went through is different man.. the level of emotions is different.. and its realli nice if one can posses another and live the life that they go through.. yer kneo wad i mean? sometimes i wonder, how does my roomate look at things? how does he feel when he sees me looking at me here typing my blog, and maybe he thinks, wtf, blogging again? i dunch knoe man.. haha...
i feel my life is boring man, but come to think abt it, everyone also says their life is somewaht boring... yeah, i think so 2... and i jus have to look around and ask myself, wad can make me feel alive? well, i guess love and for me personally, it would be earning lots of money! yeah.. that is something tht can make me feel great... really... if yer were to ask me to work 9 2 5 earning 1500 a month... well, i think, i will feel pathetic man.. i guess for me, either i mus have love, or be successful to feel alive... i often imagine to myself, lets say i buy prada, LV, wadever fuk goods la, power car, will i feel good? the answer tht came is a no. i jus still will feel empty... its like, jus say if i earn a lot of money, will i be happy because i can buy all the crap shit? nope, i dun think so.. i guess i will feel happy because of the satisfactation in earning lots of money..
dun knoe if yer readers catch the dirft though. =).. ciaoz...
Andry at 11:40 AM sometime events make u lose yourself in a certain way.. but today, somehow my faith in myself have renewed... i wun go much into wad happened, but jus say, something good really hapeen.... yeah...=)
hmm...
i am starting to see light in the dark tunnel... perhaps god have finaly decided to answer to my prayers... finally.. =)
Andry at 12:08 AM ::welcome to the human race::
jus found out my sister has got a new bf... well, wad can i say? and the previous bf was abt 1 month plus ago...
i really dun knoe man...
its like, theorically speaking, this is sluty(and as i write this, i believe some of yer will be offended)... but yet each having their own reason.. so wad now? its really confusing... so u think i should join in the fun and fuk around? jus fuk and throw?...
its like each day getting worse and worse as every story i hear man, maybe afterall my ideas of a relationship is jus kinda too idealistic.. yer knoe wad i mean?.. its like i used to say, wah the girl damn sluty, neh neh neh.. then nowadays i hear all these shit,i am like.. okayyy, standard!... season already.. yeah...
and if relationships are so unstable, i guess tht is why being successful is even more essential.. cause i think u knoe true love, i doubt it exist anymore yeah... but i think wad can be really nice is, a girl tht go through with you thick and thin, and when u are successful, u will realise tht the girl was there for yer all the way.. and tht is so sweet yeah...=).. i can only envy those who have this kind of girls, cause apparently, i dun see any girls, not even one tht is like tht anymore man... one way or the other, practicallity will set in.. my theory though.
well, i am no angel myself, but yet when i do some fuked uped things, i do feel guilty, do these people ever felt any? in any way?
never bastard a guy whom has a girl, and chase the girl.. tht was my principal man, and it still stays deep within me, but then again, i think maybe afterall, i am doing it myself for the first time with my knowlegde wad i am doing.. so guess wad guys,theorically speaking i am a bastard yeah? haha.. but i still dun thnk i bastard lehz... lol... so how? heh or is my case exceptional cause i like the girl for so long already? hmm.. dun knoe la..
guess wad, this litta boy here is confused.....
Andry at 11:48 AM soooo....
today i kena suck in nice nice... was not suppose to go to "P.I.M.P"(smu bash at devil's bar) cause apparently i am super duper tired.. but then, yer kneo wad, gal pal called up and wanted to go.. so well, ok la, jus go la.. fuking best part is... go home straight, after tht quickly do my iap report, and then slp for 1 or 2 hours(yeah, i need the rest) then head down to devils bar... and thts not all, i still have to do my "part time job"... yeah, so u can imagine after work still darn busy...haha..
enuff of clubbing man.. like i think i club 3 time for the past 14 days!! wth.... though i mus admit tht the last time i club, it felt like ages ago.. hmm... guess wad- wadever! lol
u are P.I.M.P! lolx..
*geez, come to think abt it, i should be the one saying to myself.. haha
Andry at 5:03 PM ::ah lians/ah bengs do grow up::
haha, i was reading this survey at frenster bulletin.. my super duper ah lian fren, the answers, yeah, it impress me for an ah lian.. seems like after all they do grow up 2... haha... can see tht nowadays seems like expectations jus drop yeah.. no more looking for mr perfect.. haha...
same thing here, no more... there aint any perfect people.. yeah... jus gotta learn to accept.. i guess its the biggest challenge in a relationship, tht is learn to accept la... yep =)...
anyway, i tell ya, i am freaking tired now... and tonight, i bet ya, first thing when i reach home, bath and zzzzz... cause tomolo still got "P.I.M.P"!!... tht is the smu bash, i dun knoe of i should be going though..see how la, trying to budget my expenses though.. geez...
and my fren, haha, trying to hitch me up with a girl called jasmine..lol.. wadssup.. according to them, she is sweet looking.. haha.. okayyy, we'll see abt it, who knoes i might find her interesting yeah? =P...
Andry at 11:33 AM jus realised tht the previous blog, its stated on a friday.. actually it supposed to be on a saturday midnihgt... jus tht i click "edit" for my previous nonsense blog(which i never published).. and i thought i could jus overwrite and kill 2 birds with one stone...
but seems like i have been proved wrong.. haha.. =)
Andry at 9:36 PM i am really tired now... has been really busy with so much stuff.. and past 4/5 days had abt a total of 20 hours slp... yeah, have to admit tht i having my pms now... my frens jus wen for supper and current cant take it, so staying at home and chill out..=).. as much as i am tired now, shall do a full blog today, somehow, i find peace in this.. =)
today me and my frens/business partners to sports concil(ok, i dun knoe how to spell)... the presentation and stuff, i must say, the interviewer were really super duper impress with our project. =)... in fact it even got to the point where they offer to help us to get a piece of land for us. we are starting some sports court thingy(in 6 months time, u will see it coming, and tht will be a success i tell ya).=)... at first our location would be warehouse at kallang area, but guess wad, they have a better alternative for us.. its at thomson road, jus beside police acedamy.. u knoe the empty land jus in front of singtel which is a carpark now, yeah, they are willing to lease the land and give us the privilege for it.. its totally a perfect venue...lazy to go to details, but everything was so feasible... everything went well, more then perfect i suppose.. i would say i am really please with the interview...
and due to the amazing presentation we did, one of the member even offered us an opportunity to organise an under 14 soccer league touronment for the holidays, and SSC(singapore sports concil) will be part of our sponsership. 5-10k sgd funds at our deposible if we decided to take the offer. =).. all my mates are not interested in it, but i am seriously interested in doing his project, not only will i gain so much from the experience, i will also have something to do before my feb trip to overseas to get my degree, not to mention tht the resume will look good 2..=).. its more like event organisor.. =).. i am looking at 3k profit at the end of the whole event..=).. i dun knoe if its 2 much or 2 little to ask for as its my first though... but it really interest me.. its gonna be hard, but then, its interesting man..
i also found out, i am not really good at talking the formal way, and with this incoming event, hopefully i can learn how to negotiate better...
so anyway, after the meeting, went to paradiz t play pool.. my frens wnet to play pool whereas i went to play arcade... haha..yeah...
anyway, there is something tht is bothereing me though.. tht is, my finace..
it is worry because of the money i am spending, i think this week, i have spend abt 250++ dolars... and the thing is my income is not covering my expense u see... tht is the problem, of course i have my own savings, but if jus based on direcnt income alone, my savings will dimish... and for tht i think i should think of ways to cut cost man.. yeah...
i guess, now my life is taking a turn, a good turn and mainly this project is giving me a sense of achievement... and if everything goes well, i tell ya, my studies in australia, haha, i will be enjoying and partying big time, cause i am gonna be rich!!! haha... though not the stage of car yet...
can u imagine, i 21yrs old, fuking managing director of a big time project... i knoe u migh think its navie and doesnt sound feasible, haha...he was complating tht if only he was 30 years old younger, he would be doing this enterprenuer thingy, not once he mention, but more than once he somehow lament on himself!!haha... i guess he is envying us!! yeah, thts the way it should be!! *blea*
ok, enuff of ego talk, i feel good and proud, so i shall share..
anyway, goodnight readers, wish me luck everything will go out smoothly ya.. ;)
Andry at 12:04 AM opps, geez, put the wrong song for the previous blog.. wth.. haha.. anyway, this is the correct song la..=)...
jus cam back from chalet, too mc today, drank quite a bit(i am a bad drinker, really, and my quite a bit is like 2 cups of vodka raspberry? and a few bee la.. not drunk but jus kinda high la, and jus slp there and started calling people..hehe)... anway, later heading down to zouk again, hopefully tomolo can wakey in time for my work, if not i kena fuk nice nice already.. haha....
fuked uped life:
seriously, i hate my life now, i dun like to drink and neither do i like to club extensively.. i knoe its unbelievable, i dun like to smoke intensively, maybe a day 3-4 sticks jus nice? but seems like i am doing all the things i dun like extensively for the past 2 months? everytime kena suck in.. see la, 2 more days my fren bday, see if i will kena suck in.. we'll wait and see.... ya, and next week tuesday, got smu bash at devil's bar, and this is my close fren grp going, so i have to go right?.. so now u knoe, the word used is...... SUCKED IN!!!
some thoughts:
today, as me and my fren was gonna buy some food from the market, suddenly i jus told him, u knoe after wad happen last time, i seldom really go to eat hawker food in a way anymore cause somehow its of no class la..(actually dun knoe where the hell i am getting at la).. but anyway, the thing is, well,he told me tht when his supervisor got promoted, the big timer in the company told his supervisor, dun eat in food court already, try to eat in resturant.... due to social class....
it is sad tht the hard facts of life sometimes jus is so real.. i dun understand wadsup with all these things man.. and of course i must also admit tht i have been sometimes also steorotype people la, but then again.. haiz, dun knoe man.. its jus sad.. =/...
talk abt social class...
CB, wassup man, last week fri my fren bday, yesterday my another fren bday, and 2 days time my another fren bday..
Andry at 7:39 PM well, maybe a sign of relief for my readers, well, i think i have to let go of sherie.. maybe its kinda shocking to many people tht i still like in a way cannot get over her.. well, today the desicion is made. =)..... its sad when i think back of the past man.. some of the memories tht are still vivid in my mind.. ya... walks along adam roads, the beach, east coast feeding fishes/ducks, all the funny things tht happen, all the nonsense things, yeah, u knoe, when u young u tend to do lots of nonsense things.. 1 year 7 months is a looog time, depends how u actually look at it, in a way, i will still say i feel very attached to her, in a way i saw her grow up by the years la.. ya... but come to think abt it, its the past man.. funny tht i stayed in my hostel for 7/8 years but yet i didnt feel particularly sad abt it.
really decided for real now, so u guys gotta give me support ok!?! i think u guys should be happy for me instead because finally i can move on! yes!
no more waiting, waited long enuff man... guess patience is the virtue of men, but then u knoe wads funny, yesterday on my way back from sentosa i have already been thinking abt letting go, and its like and then me and my fren we have always been telling each other to always wait until a day.. and then yesterday my reply to him wad, hey dun wait anymore, if yer let go, i think slowly u will feel better.. and immediately i can see the disappointment in the face.. it jus reminds me of how i looked when my frens tell me to let go.. its like a carbon copy of me.. i guess morever the effect tht i always used to support him, then now telling him to let go, its really demoralising... well, wad can i say, i am here also gonna try hard to let go, maybe this is my first time tht i gonna do it, so there is a tendency to be harder la.. =) u guys knoe wad i mean man.. my fren asked me yesterday while we were chilling out at the beach, why today never talk abt sherie? haha.. well, maybe after all the steps is slowly taken.. slowly man.. =).. and i am sure sherie if she reads this, she will be happy to knoe tht i have decided to let go.. =).. well, its really sad for my side here la, i dun knoe why, but i guess its a step tht i need to take if i want to enjoy my life. suffering for a year is no joke..
well, no matter wad, there are some things tht will be deep in my heart forever though.. she is the first, the mother, the angel, the love, the one, the everything.. =).. but well, its over and time to find my next angel. i must have faith. i cannot give up.. =)... when i was with my second, well, i learnt something 2, afterall i can actually feel for another girl although it was not tht strong, but it could be felt.. =).. so there is hope afterall.. i knoe it.. andry u can do it man!!
yeah baby, yeah!!
Andry at 10:22 PM
today i bought my first issue of new man! hehe.. deciede to really groom up myself now, gonna get mag and stuff to like improve myself image for my own satisfaction.. but the cloths shown kinda expensive man.. 300++ for a shirt(can find similar cheap subsitute though, hehe), damn, but i still see some nice rings at affordable price.. haha... well, we'll see how things go..
time for a new look! yeahz, slowly though.. =P..
Andry at 1:13 AM my dad is 61 years old this year.. and for the past few years, i dun think i have communicated with him properly.. like, never call him and stuff... he is getting old, and i guess *touch wood* it is at an age anything can happen to him... so today i will make a resolution, tht is to call my dad at least once a week, but if can, then twice a week... afterall, so much has been put into me(of course including my brother ans sis).. its time to pay back some gradtitue... yeah, i dun wan to wait until too late and regret for not spending enuff time canre and concern... =)
Andry at 2:32 PM hmm... a quick blog here.. seems like nowadays realli busy with lots of stuff man.. gonna go for seminar with citibank after work with my fren and hopefully able to get my job after i grad, and yeah, still have to do "surveys" by friday! and my report! and some fuking problems in my life.. haiz.. full of crap man.. tomolo, still have to meet my teacher for lunch, and after tht, got suck in by my teacher to go back to sch for some stuff, which in the first place i dun think i need anymore, but jus like kena suck in.. like my teacher pestering me and stuff.. damn.. after tht, tomolo i need to get to my hairdresser again, i think its too long and its realy hard for me to comb, gonna ask them to touch up!.. hmm.. full of stuffs... no more "free" days anymore!!... haha..
fuk, my mp3 jus died on me, like 5 secs ago.. damn..
anyway, gtg liao.. caizo
Andry at 5:10 PM today i have smoked only a stick... now thinking should i buy my next pack of cigarettes.... if i buy, it will last me till thursday... but then.. should i, or should i not.. ite really damn boring in the office man.... damn... and if i dun buy, i wont smoke, thts what i knoe... hmm.. *thinking hard*
cant be bothered to blog muched today la.. ciaoz...
read abt an article abt casino.. u knoe wad, seriously, casino is the worst from of gambling!! its really no chance.. at least if ya bet soccer, it is against another people judgemnt, so its not so bad, but casino, haha.. really no chance given!!!
will be writting a small article soon abt why one should never ever play casino man.. ya.. ciaoz.
::update::
my fren is interested in this girl, and its like u knoe, he kinda more into the decent kind la.. and he's pretty close to the girl, guess wad, the girl had a std... only jus he found out.. yeah, and top of tht, it was from a one night stand and all along he thought she was nice girl.. haha...
wads happening to the world... yeah.. i think sooner or later i gonna get sucked in.. its like days after days i hear stories like tht, and it really makes me feel like, u knoe what? lets jus fuck around. it doesnt matter anymore ya..
for now, i guess the decency still somewhere here inside me man.
my fren debating with me tht std is forever in the body and u can only surpress it, not kill it.. i think he is being ridiculous and we kinda debating.. am i right or am i wrong?
Andry at 3:23 PM currently at my home, waiting for 3 pm to come before my gang of frens gonna reach here to discuss my "world class" business plan.. muhahaah.. well, hopefully its gonna be world class- =P... at the mean time, 2 more hours to go, but i tell ya, its like i feel so lonely man... its been kinda long since i actually felt this way... wadever, ciaoz.
:update:
one hour has jus passed, haha, thanks to my dear fren for acompanying me.. =)... well, jus finish cleaning the fish, or rather one goldfish in my fish tank..haha.. it was supposed to be used as a companionship for the dragon fish, but apparently, the dragon fish died! and so in the end i am growing a goldfish!..hehe, and i swaer it has grwon in size! haha.. ciaoz, time for lunch. =P
Andry at 1:51 PM somewhere in the singapore map, one dot occupies this place. and let me guess, the one place with a bunch of iodiotic guys, compromise of teddy bears, robocops, mr 69, commando, and as the name suggest, a flying knight(sky knight~~ ok i am suppose to make them believe tht u can fly.. =P.. ahhaha), has like 5/6 hours break on thursdays, and nothing to do, then coming to "never11.blogspot.com" for entertainment purpose, hoping to find some saucy news as usual, and then gonna laugh yer way off with all the crap comments, most importantly a tool to make sure when i meet up with them, as i will be starting my story telling, one will quickly pull out a black sad boring face and say ," i already knoe, u have blogged it" ... and then i will be saying," aiya, at least others still dun knoe.. =P " ....
HAHA, welcome guys!! eh special greeting for yer guys! LEM rocks dudes(yeah right, lol)!!
but one question though... the nasi lemak in adam road nice? =P
Andry at 9:36 AM
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