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its been long since i had blogged. wads been happening is far too many things. i rather not talk abt it. instead lets jus talk abt wad i did to distract all tht has happened.. :)...
well, for the past few days, i have not been doing much. yesterday went to ntu to meet my fren and stay overnight and chill out. like we stayed till six in the morning and yeahz, thts abt it. nothing much also man.. basically jus playing warcraft and spend some good old time. meet up with my fren,yuanshing,who came back from australia to do ns. he was like telling me the wild side of aussie.. its really wild, and although i had heard comments abt melbourne University abt a boring place, i found tht i guess there are different grp. my fren is a hongkie so thus he was telling all his hongkie stories. i tell ya, its crazy man. all the pregnant case and top of tht, those screwing at level four and can be heard at level 2!!!.. can u believe it? haha... oh well... thts a bit of the wild stories i heard over there.
well, being single means tht there will not be anyone accompanying me to buy clothes, nevertheless i found my roommate! ha!, should be going g2000 to shop for my work pants and work clothes la. after we will be going to devils bar to watch chelsea VS manu. tomolo is my first day of work and i will be sleeping tonight at 3!! wtf right??lol.. well, screw it la, i can handle the work..
another complain to make in life, freaking went to my salon, and gues wad, my freaking hairdresser is off day! and i couldnt wait so i had another one cutting my hair... and now, i tell ya, its no different cutting my hair at the normal barber salon than at super cuts man.. i am like, this hair she cut, it really looks like a dickhead man.. one dick hairstyle la... cannot stand it man.. BALLS!
Andry at 5:25 PM my current state of mind is like lost.... like i jsu cant feel the world now.... i realli dun knoe wad to blog, jus tht my mind is lost.... been listeing to limp bizkit, and dun knoe if the song had a play in how i felt, now trying to listen songs from jewel.. hopefully it will get me back on track to the world.. and NO, i didnt do drugs, neither had i done it, unless it was glue.. one time only, tht was sec4 when i did glue... so well, yeahz, can feel my mind getting better man... perhaps, screw limp bizkit music.. its affecting me? i dun knoe.... have u guys ever felt lost in the world?? i did... and perhaps a sign tht it was from depression?
sometimes i realli wonder wad it takes to be a good bf? i mean compare to my last relationship, i think i had realli done wonders and really improved on my overall attitude(although i admit i still cannot be romantic...).... but yet, somehoe it is still not good enuff?? i really dun knoe.. its like my gf guys fren, all damn gentlemen, and i really find it real hard to keep it up... its like i have been asking around my frens, and yeah, they agree tht its a bit too high standard tht it was set.... but how? or maybe its my frens tht are low standard? or issit her frens are hgigh standard? .. confused abt this bgr shit.. sometimes feel liek i cantr take it anymore..... jus one day.... and perhaps the explosion will come... perhaps....
u all believed in "charmed" life? sometimes i jsu feel tht way abt my life.. its like i always never study for my stuides, but yet i always pass(except last semester wherby i fail- due to breakup i supposed), then its like i really the worst student and stuff, but yet, its like how to say, i still managed.. and then top of that, i am the only lucky asshole who gets to work at suntec.. its like i dun deserve to work there base on my results, but somehow i jus made it there.. somehow.. its like really somehow man... then its like i realli think they are actually so much better guys out there, but somehow in my life, i still get to have 2 power chick as my gf... so its like, sometimes i feel like i realli blessed.. damn confusing man.. life is strange la.. strange, but for now, i do feel blessed with all the things i have... and hopefully it will be there.. the luck will be there... god, thank you...
for those business minded people, u might want to check out this website.... http://pages.stern.nyu.edu/~adamodar/New_Home_Page/spreadsh.htm ... this website has a finacial guru who teaches lesson online and always video tapes his lesson.. go check it out.. its really good for your financial apect.. its gd.. its like i think if i dun have time, i'll jus listen to this indian talk.. its good and chim.. yep.. check it out.. only for the business minded.. ;P
Andry at 12:01 AM today really fucking world class!! guess where is my attachment?? bloody at suntec!! world class.. it think i am the most luckiest idiot in my class already.. t\really damn world class place to work in man.. wah, shoik, imagaine i work there, and then after work go club at emabssy with my colleague... world class is the word to describe man..world class!!.. cant describe the feeling of excitmenet... yeahz baby, yeahz!!!
Andry at 12:48 AM sometimes i feel like i am on top of the world, like real feel tht, hey man, i am da best, da best already.... but sometimes i feel like i am realli a screwed uped man... like now, i realli do feel quite screwed uped... sometimes yeahz, i look at the positive things abt me, and yeah i feel good.. but somehow today i jus feel the negative side of me.... and i realli feel shitty... here goes the list..
-gambler
-slacker
-fucked uped bf(trust me, even though u knoe u fucked uped, but yet as muchas u try to change, somehow cannot, cause its jus me- so damn disappointed with myself! fuck me man!!..or perhaps other guys are also like tht? i dun knoe.. haiz.. fucked uped man! the best i can do is try my best, but if not gd enuff, then realli no choice already=/....)
-smoker
-cannot realli distiguished right and wrong and will have tendaency to do wrongs things although sometimes knoe its right!!
-not romantic
-fickle minded
- hmm, others i dun knoe liao....... so far thts abt me tht i knoe... but come to think abt it, other than fucked uped bf, thts abt it right?lol... yeahz, comforting myself....
Andry at 12:23 AM fuck man, this week i spend 300 dollars already man... and none of them is buy goods or rather permanmant stuff, basically it was jus spending the 300 dollars... hmm.. can feel the pinch... haha..
actually today broke off with my gf.... yeah, everything was cold.. but then we met up, and then after tht, everything is ok now la.. in fact i would say tht somehow the liking for each other(as least to me) has grown stronger la.. today, whao, she looked power man.. hehe, not the traditional mature clothes but rather its the hip hop kind, and it sure lookssss gooood man... hehe... i think we like weird combi... me the semi formal whereas she was the hip hop ... haha, as we stand at the mirror, i looked, and it sure looked weird man!!
today went to hagen daaz.... and as i was having the ice cream, jus cant stop thinking of how poor man... haiz, sometimes realli feel ike crying when think of the past..=(.... wadever....lol
Andry at 2:31 AM had a real sweet dream last night... too sweet....
Andry at 11:19 PM currently listen to "behind blue eyes" by limp bizkit...... its the kind of slow modern rock.. a sad song.... to talk abt it, there will be a upcoming concert in singapore by him, i suppose me and my grps of frens will be going to listen tht punk ass!lol... it will be my first ever concert man.. heh heh heh.. anyone care to join in? lol.. its abt 80 dollars la.. dec 2nd......
on my way to mambo night, but jus do a last blog man... looking at me, the life i am having now, yeahz, i really enjoying all the fun i am having, but yet, i still does remmeebr how poor i was, and yeahz, tht poor... so much difference in everything i do from last time.. if u were to ask me, i would say tht KFC was a luxury food at tht time.... wad i was trying to imply here is tht money makes so much fucking difference.....
today, i also read an article abt grp "energy".... how the main actor was kicked out of the grp where he set it up himself.... normaly i would have been sad abt the whole thing, abt how this world is so screwed up, but today i felt different, i feel like, hey, afterall this is the fucking human race and its the way things work... yeah, the way things work man..!! slowly adapting to this cruel world, but yet, i am determined tht i shall not be one of those case.... i will go get my freaking degree and make someone of myself.. i will.. andry, u will!
Andry at 10:03 PM currently feeling blue..........
current thoughts is- is money everything? or rather a big part of thing?
i really wonder sometimes.... haiz, cant describe wad is going on my head.. i jus htink this world is really full of shit.. full of shit...
one example: i was telling my gf hwo it is so saddening that this world are so money oriented... and its like everything is so money, and i feel so sad abt the world and abt how relationship ends because indirectly because of money.. and i was telling its such a screwed uped world and so sad... then she rebuked and said," maybe u are feeling so sad abt this world because u fear tht in the future tht u might not make it rich as a person?" ... then i said," see, now u think i am feeling this way la because i had not made it... but imagine if next time i were to make it in life, and i were to say this sentacnce i jus said, will u think this way? or only then will u realised tht maybe perhaps that i really do feel so sad abt the world...... so am i right to say tht in this circumstances money did play a part to change your decision if i had made it in life.".... i cant rememebr wad she replied, but she sort of jus agreed in wad i said....
so can u see how disgustiong this world is?? its all abt the fucking money!
money can do wonders(although its not everything man).... u can look generous with money, whereas for a poor man, maybe he is generous but because he needs to survive, he needs to save money, and people will start to think he is like tht because he is stingy..... this is jus one example.. so u can imagine the fuck upedness of this world? can or not?
sad and disgusting world... but slowly, i am starting to accept the world as it is... slowly.....
pls leave comments for this topic, i want to see u people's opinion. afterall i might be wrong, but prove me wrong man.. prove me..
Andry at 6:18 PM supposely jus done finish a negotiation regarding a laptop tht i am selling to someone. he wanted 700 whereas i asked him for 750... i gave him the "take it or leave ot" attitude. i did not give in and although the deal was not struck,i did feel the sense of power for the moment, for i am not desperate for his money... and i could jus get another seller on yahoo auctions.. i did feel good and still does feel good now. heh heh heh....
anyway, the girl accompanying, whao!, one freaking power chick i tell ya... like arounf 27 to 28 years olds.. really one power chick la..lol.. :P.... i guess somehow mature girls turn me on than those childish kind although its sometimes nice to hear girls acting childish once in a while..lol... kk, thts all for today man.. ciaoz.! ;P
Andry at 5:57 PM to go or to stay? tht is the question bugging my mind for weeks already.. to do melbourne to study or to not... i dont knoe man... its like even if i go there, but then in the end come back and open my business, also no point going htere in the first place... on top of tht, i have my "bookie" job to take care... i was thinking if i stay back in singapore, i could be earning my monthly 1.3k per month, and then top of that perhaps, my bookie job could improeve as my network increases when i go to work.. so i am still wondering how abt should i plan my future.. my dad assures me tht he has a plan for the future and confident i will become soneone useful, but then its like.. how to say, i have my doubts too.. going for degree is not only the degree, instead its also the associates tht u will knoe in the future tht might help u in the future.. now i am pretty confused myself.... my brother instead might be going overseas to harvard to extend his studies... so well, kinda impressed in a way cause i still remmeber tht sec2, he was a goner when he started mixing with the bad companies.. but all tht has changed now... oh well.......
to go or not to go??!!??
Andry at 4:45 PM jsu finished bathing.. still stuck at home.. heh heh heh.. suppose to go watch matrix revolution with kelvin at 330, but due to lazyness, we decided to meet up later...... hearing from one of my gal pal said, "hahaah love is what ya perceive as. love is a word. it's about the connection. ull understand if ya watch mtrix revolution.haha.... i dun really get wad shit she's talking, but anyway, lets see if after the how i'll understand wad shit she is talking la.. haha...
THOUGHTS
today as i was shitting, i was reading the straits time.. and i read this artical abt how the us economy is worsing for this current month(judge on the numebr pof pay cuts) whears the other 2 previous months saw an increase in the jobs.... wel, wads my opinion, i guess the world is going to get tougher and toougher.. each company is either outscouring for better deal and cutting cost.. and wad cut cost? one big factor would be workers wages, and hence they invest more high techs stuff and then layoff the worker(even government jobs people do get sacked now!) and they u will have a more efficient and cheaper company. Human makes mistakes whereas machines dont... so by judging on my theories, how can the world economy improve? i dun knoe, considerting that the uhman population is ever growing...
somehow i predict the future to be the rich one damn rich and the poor is the sort of middle class who can only barely to pay their bills... so here come the confusing part? will there be any revolution coming out as shown in the russia history when the peasants couldnt barely feed their needs... most white collars jobs worker in my point of view are supposely "peasants"... to see a new style of revolution would be interesting... but perhaps my thoughts are jus naive and lame... haha... interesting world it seems.. i do feel pity for those stuck on rat-race....
Andry at 3:12 PM depression
the word is so real.... have any of u actually went through it yet? its the feeling where everything in the world seems so dull.. no matter wad u do, u will feel shity... no matter wad u do.... some people suffer from it from in lapse of times... som suffer it for long periods.... but wad cause all these... if u were to ask me, i am not sure too.. but i guess the thing u want it badly but u do not get it... and thts when u will tend to have depression... oh well, how to say.. there are many reason for depression la.. =).. but the feeling when u are in it, it sucks man....
-holding on, i'm six feet from the andrianne, i'm thinking, maybe six feet is so far down-
Andry at 12:43 PM finally the exams are over!! hehe... but well, currently still at home la, havent gone out today.. but will be going to esplanade later.. for wad? i still not sure.. perhaps the library as my gf wanna go there, or maybe jus a nice dinner.. have no clue at all balls.. all i knoe is gonna be at her house at six..haha....
read andrian's blog.. abt how a successful man has alomst everything but yet still not happy abt his life... http://andrian.blogspot.com/ ... oh well, sometimes i feel like his situation man.. its like i can have money, have gd family, styaing in nice houseand etc... but jsu not happy..... haiz.. well, wad can i say.. i realli dun knoe too la... like my gf ever said, this blog is almost useless... wads the point of it? morever on top of all these, not all things i can blog cause not all tht i blog, is for all people too see... well.. i realli dun knoe.. more ti htink abt blog, i feel like, fuck this shit... damn nonsense....
anyway, i think will be going for my plastic surgery soon- for my nose.. aint a better time than now as its the holidays break la.. so, gotta go check around for gd surgery, since i am already going for surgery, i wont mind spending a bit more to touch up instead of jus a straight nose.. i think i will go or a nose i want.. hopefull it will look good on me...=) heh heh heh
Andry at 4:07 PM today i had my exam "marketing" papers.. supposed to wake up at 3 to like study till next morning and go do the paper, but end up watching soccer for like 45 mins(1st half), and then at HT, i have to do my "business"... and its was like 405 before i can really studide... studied one chapter within like 45 mins la.. and then still got 4 more chapters to go, but too tired.. so took a rest and whoa! thts it, 7 am!! and my paper is at 9.. somehow jus try to study cause going to take cab to sch so ore time to nerd, but then feel asleep again.. and 710 and i suddenly waeup and like WTF man... and quickly bathh.. and rush to sch...and 8 when i left the house.. and i realised tht its 8 am and like hello, this is no cab at this time!!.. freak, end up taking bus and was like really really studying like a freak, standing up holding notes and etc.. shit balls...................
took the paper and like isaw the first question and first thing come to my mind, i am gonna get kicked out of poly because i failed b4 and this one fuck already... and somehow jus force my self to do... and in the end, i did actually atteempt like 90 percent of the questions!! wah, cant believe it sometimes.. i think can pass la, cannnot possible fail... quite confident man...
THOUGHTS
some times when i thought back abt my past relationship, i can feel so much hurt, even until today, and as each time i think abt it, i jus go for a smoke to release my hurt... seems like cigarette is my remedy to all the emotional pain.... but today, somehow i didnt feel so bad, i mean , i do still can feel the hurt.. the way the way i found out abt the whole thing and wad happened and the girl tht was so sweet and innocent-like an angel to my eyes, the things she did, i couldn believe.. and sometimes although time had sort of heal, i cant believe wad had happen at times... sometimes i wich to blog abt the whole story to the world to see, but is there any point.. i dun knoe.. but trust me, wad i went through, it hurts too much.. too too much... sometimes i still wonder why i havent commited sucidded at tht time? i realli wonder cause i am those tht dont really believe in living as life is only pain, but yet somehow i jus managed to survived it.. somehow... i realli didnt knoe wad happen, but perhaps my ego did play a part of me dying... i kept telling myself, hey andy u cannot die, u are jus too good to die.. yeahz, ego talks, but at least tht made me survived...........
darling, personal message for u, i do like u... i realli do... jus give me time to get things right... darling,*hugz* and -muakz-... if i am not serious abt this relationship, i would have never ask u to be my gf.. the girl before u, u knoe wad happened, i did not take her cause i did not feel for her at all, if all i wanted was a subsitute, she would have been the one.. but i did not, cause i didnt want to hurt her as i knoe tht she will be a subsitute, but for u, its a different story all together, i do feel for u.. if not i wouldnt have asked u to be my gf and get hurt... i do like u dear... hope u believe me....
Andry at 12:59 PM realised tht blogging is not my cup of tea la... simple.. yep.. =).. going to quite real soon...
Andry at 1:12 AM
well, for the past few days, i have not been doing much. yesterday went to ntu to meet my fren and stay overnight and chill out. like we stayed till six in the morning and yeahz, thts abt it. nothing much also man.. basically jus playing warcraft and spend some good old time. meet up with my fren,yuanshing,who came back from australia to do ns. he was like telling me the wild side of aussie.. its really wild, and although i had heard comments abt melbourne University abt a boring place, i found tht i guess there are different grp. my fren is a hongkie so thus he was telling all his hongkie stories. i tell ya, its crazy man. all the pregnant case and top of tht, those screwing at level four and can be heard at level 2!!!.. can u believe it? haha... oh well... thts a bit of the wild stories i heard over there.
well, being single means tht there will not be anyone accompanying me to buy clothes, nevertheless i found my roommate! ha!, should be going g2000 to shop for my work pants and work clothes la. after we will be going to devils bar to watch chelsea VS manu. tomolo is my first day of work and i will be sleeping tonight at 3!! wtf right??lol.. well, screw it la, i can handle the work..
another complain to make in life, freaking went to my salon, and gues wad, my freaking hairdresser is off day! and i couldnt wait so i had another one cutting my hair... and now, i tell ya, its no different cutting my hair at the normal barber salon than at super cuts man.. i am like, this hair she cut, it really looks like a dickhead man.. one dick hairstyle la... cannot stand it man.. BALLS!
Andry at 5:25 PM my current state of mind is like lost.... like i jsu cant feel the world now.... i realli dun knoe wad to blog, jus tht my mind is lost.... been listeing to limp bizkit, and dun knoe if the song had a play in how i felt, now trying to listen songs from jewel.. hopefully it will get me back on track to the world.. and NO, i didnt do drugs, neither had i done it, unless it was glue.. one time only, tht was sec4 when i did glue... so well, yeahz, can feel my mind getting better man... perhaps, screw limp bizkit music.. its affecting me? i dun knoe.... have u guys ever felt lost in the world?? i did... and perhaps a sign tht it was from depression?
sometimes i realli wonder wad it takes to be a good bf? i mean compare to my last relationship, i think i had realli done wonders and really improved on my overall attitude(although i admit i still cannot be romantic...).... but yet, somehoe it is still not good enuff?? i really dun knoe.. its like my gf guys fren, all damn gentlemen, and i really find it real hard to keep it up... its like i have been asking around my frens, and yeah, they agree tht its a bit too high standard tht it was set.... but how? or maybe its my frens tht are low standard? or issit her frens are hgigh standard? .. confused abt this bgr shit.. sometimes feel liek i cantr take it anymore..... jus one day.... and perhaps the explosion will come... perhaps....
u all believed in "charmed" life? sometimes i jsu feel tht way abt my life.. its like i always never study for my stuides, but yet i always pass(except last semester wherby i fail- due to breakup i supposed), then its like i really the worst student and stuff, but yet, its like how to say, i still managed.. and then top of that, i am the only lucky asshole who gets to work at suntec.. its like i dun deserve to work there base on my results, but somehow i jus made it there.. somehow.. its like really somehow man... then its like i realli think they are actually so much better guys out there, but somehow in my life, i still get to have 2 power chick as my gf... so its like, sometimes i feel like i realli blessed.. damn confusing man.. life is strange la.. strange, but for now, i do feel blessed with all the things i have... and hopefully it will be there.. the luck will be there... god, thank you...
for those business minded people, u might want to check out this website.... http://pages.stern.nyu.edu/~adamodar/New_Home_Page/spreadsh.htm ... this website has a finacial guru who teaches lesson online and always video tapes his lesson.. go check it out.. its really good for your financial apect.. its gd.. its like i think if i dun have time, i'll jus listen to this indian talk.. its good and chim.. yep.. check it out.. only for the business minded.. ;P
Andry at 12:01 AM today really fucking world class!! guess where is my attachment?? bloody at suntec!! world class.. it think i am the most luckiest idiot in my class already.. t\really damn world class place to work in man.. wah, shoik, imagaine i work there, and then after work go club at emabssy with my colleague... world class is the word to describe man..world class!!.. cant describe the feeling of excitmenet... yeahz baby, yeahz!!!
Andry at 12:48 AM sometimes i feel like i am on top of the world, like real feel tht, hey man, i am da best, da best already.... but sometimes i feel like i am realli a screwed uped man... like now, i realli do feel quite screwed uped... sometimes yeahz, i look at the positive things abt me, and yeah i feel good.. but somehow today i jus feel the negative side of me.... and i realli feel shitty... here goes the list..
-gambler
-slacker
-fucked uped bf(trust me, even though u knoe u fucked uped, but yet as muchas u try to change, somehow cannot, cause its jus me- so damn disappointed with myself! fuck me man!!..or perhaps other guys are also like tht? i dun knoe.. haiz.. fucked uped man! the best i can do is try my best, but if not gd enuff, then realli no choice already=/....)
-smoker
-cannot realli distiguished right and wrong and will have tendaency to do wrongs things although sometimes knoe its right!!
-not romantic
-fickle minded
- hmm, others i dun knoe liao....... so far thts abt me tht i knoe... but come to think abt it, other than fucked uped bf, thts abt it right?lol... yeahz, comforting myself....
Andry at 12:23 AM fuck man, this week i spend 300 dollars already man... and none of them is buy goods or rather permanmant stuff, basically it was jus spending the 300 dollars... hmm.. can feel the pinch... haha..
actually today broke off with my gf.... yeah, everything was cold.. but then we met up, and then after tht, everything is ok now la.. in fact i would say tht somehow the liking for each other(as least to me) has grown stronger la.. today, whao, she looked power man.. hehe, not the traditional mature clothes but rather its the hip hop kind, and it sure lookssss gooood man... hehe... i think we like weird combi... me the semi formal whereas she was the hip hop ... haha, as we stand at the mirror, i looked, and it sure looked weird man!!
today went to hagen daaz.... and as i was having the ice cream, jus cant stop thinking of how poor man... haiz, sometimes realli feel ike crying when think of the past..=(.... wadever....lol
Andry at 2:31 AM had a real sweet dream last night... too sweet....
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Andry at 11:19 PM currently listen to "behind blue eyes" by limp bizkit...... its the kind of slow modern rock.. a sad song.... to talk abt it, there will be a upcoming concert in singapore by him, i suppose me and my grps of frens will be going to listen tht punk ass!lol... it will be my first ever concert man.. heh heh heh.. anyone care to join in? lol.. its abt 80 dollars la.. dec 2nd......
on my way to mambo night, but jus do a last blog man... looking at me, the life i am having now, yeahz, i really enjoying all the fun i am having, but yet, i still does remmeebr how poor i was, and yeahz, tht poor... so much difference in everything i do from last time.. if u were to ask me, i would say tht KFC was a luxury food at tht time.... wad i was trying to imply here is tht money makes so much fucking difference.....
today, i also read an article abt grp "energy".... how the main actor was kicked out of the grp where he set it up himself.... normaly i would have been sad abt the whole thing, abt how this world is so screwed up, but today i felt different, i feel like, hey, afterall this is the fucking human race and its the way things work... yeah, the way things work man..!! slowly adapting to this cruel world, but yet, i am determined tht i shall not be one of those case.... i will go get my freaking degree and make someone of myself.. i will.. andry, u will!
Andry at 10:03 PM currently feeling blue..........
current thoughts is- is money everything? or rather a big part of thing?
i really wonder sometimes.... haiz, cant describe wad is going on my head.. i jus htink this world is really full of shit.. full of shit...
one example: i was telling my gf hwo it is so saddening that this world are so money oriented... and its like everything is so money, and i feel so sad abt the world and abt how relationship ends because indirectly because of money.. and i was telling its such a screwed uped world and so sad... then she rebuked and said," maybe u are feeling so sad abt this world because u fear tht in the future tht u might not make it rich as a person?" ... then i said," see, now u think i am feeling this way la because i had not made it... but imagine if next time i were to make it in life, and i were to say this sentacnce i jus said, will u think this way? or only then will u realised tht maybe perhaps that i really do feel so sad abt the world...... so am i right to say tht in this circumstances money did play a part to change your decision if i had made it in life.".... i cant rememebr wad she replied, but she sort of jus agreed in wad i said....
so can u see how disgustiong this world is?? its all abt the fucking money!
money can do wonders(although its not everything man).... u can look generous with money, whereas for a poor man, maybe he is generous but because he needs to survive, he needs to save money, and people will start to think he is like tht because he is stingy..... this is jus one example.. so u can imagine the fuck upedness of this world? can or not?
sad and disgusting world... but slowly, i am starting to accept the world as it is... slowly.....
pls leave comments for this topic, i want to see u people's opinion. afterall i might be wrong, but prove me wrong man.. prove me..
Andry at 6:18 PM supposely jus done finish a negotiation regarding a laptop tht i am selling to someone. he wanted 700 whereas i asked him for 750... i gave him the "take it or leave ot" attitude. i did not give in and although the deal was not struck,i did feel the sense of power for the moment, for i am not desperate for his money... and i could jus get another seller on yahoo auctions.. i did feel good and still does feel good now. heh heh heh....
anyway, the girl accompanying, whao!, one freaking power chick i tell ya... like arounf 27 to 28 years olds.. really one power chick la..lol.. :P.... i guess somehow mature girls turn me on than those childish kind although its sometimes nice to hear girls acting childish once in a while..lol... kk, thts all for today man.. ciaoz.! ;P
Andry at 5:57 PM to go or to stay? tht is the question bugging my mind for weeks already.. to do melbourne to study or to not... i dont knoe man... its like even if i go there, but then in the end come back and open my business, also no point going htere in the first place... on top of tht, i have my "bookie" job to take care... i was thinking if i stay back in singapore, i could be earning my monthly 1.3k per month, and then top of that perhaps, my bookie job could improeve as my network increases when i go to work.. so i am still wondering how abt should i plan my future.. my dad assures me tht he has a plan for the future and confident i will become soneone useful, but then its like.. how to say, i have my doubts too.. going for degree is not only the degree, instead its also the associates tht u will knoe in the future tht might help u in the future.. now i am pretty confused myself.... my brother instead might be going overseas to harvard to extend his studies... so well, kinda impressed in a way cause i still remmeber tht sec2, he was a goner when he started mixing with the bad companies.. but all tht has changed now... oh well.......
to go or not to go??!!??
Andry at 4:45 PM jsu finished bathing.. still stuck at home.. heh heh heh.. suppose to go watch matrix revolution with kelvin at 330, but due to lazyness, we decided to meet up later...... hearing from one of my gal pal said, "hahaah love is what ya perceive as. love is a word. it's about the connection. ull understand if ya watch mtrix revolution.haha.... i dun really get wad shit she's talking, but anyway, lets see if after the how i'll understand wad shit she is talking la.. haha...
THOUGHTS
today as i was shitting, i was reading the straits time.. and i read this artical abt how the us economy is worsing for this current month(judge on the numebr pof pay cuts) whears the other 2 previous months saw an increase in the jobs.... wel, wads my opinion, i guess the world is going to get tougher and toougher.. each company is either outscouring for better deal and cutting cost.. and wad cut cost? one big factor would be workers wages, and hence they invest more high techs stuff and then layoff the worker(even government jobs people do get sacked now!) and they u will have a more efficient and cheaper company. Human makes mistakes whereas machines dont... so by judging on my theories, how can the world economy improve? i dun knoe, considerting that the uhman population is ever growing...
somehow i predict the future to be the rich one damn rich and the poor is the sort of middle class who can only barely to pay their bills... so here come the confusing part? will there be any revolution coming out as shown in the russia history when the peasants couldnt barely feed their needs... most white collars jobs worker in my point of view are supposely "peasants"... to see a new style of revolution would be interesting... but perhaps my thoughts are jus naive and lame... haha... interesting world it seems.. i do feel pity for those stuck on rat-race....
Andry at 3:12 PM depression
the word is so real.... have any of u actually went through it yet? its the feeling where everything in the world seems so dull.. no matter wad u do, u will feel shity... no matter wad u do.... some people suffer from it from in lapse of times... som suffer it for long periods.... but wad cause all these... if u were to ask me, i am not sure too.. but i guess the thing u want it badly but u do not get it... and thts when u will tend to have depression... oh well, how to say.. there are many reason for depression la.. =).. but the feeling when u are in it, it sucks man....
-holding on, i'm six feet from the andrianne, i'm thinking, maybe six feet is so far down-
Andry at 12:43 PM finally the exams are over!! hehe... but well, currently still at home la, havent gone out today.. but will be going to esplanade later.. for wad? i still not sure.. perhaps the library as my gf wanna go there, or maybe jus a nice dinner.. have no clue at all balls.. all i knoe is gonna be at her house at six..haha....
read andrian's blog.. abt how a successful man has alomst everything but yet still not happy abt his life... http://andrian.blogspot.com/ ... oh well, sometimes i feel like his situation man.. its like i can have money, have gd family, styaing in nice houseand etc... but jsu not happy..... haiz.. well, wad can i say.. i realli dun knoe too la... like my gf ever said, this blog is almost useless... wads the point of it? morever on top of all these, not all things i can blog cause not all tht i blog, is for all people too see... well.. i realli dun knoe.. more ti htink abt blog, i feel like, fuck this shit... damn nonsense....
anyway, i think will be going for my plastic surgery soon- for my nose.. aint a better time than now as its the holidays break la.. so, gotta go check around for gd surgery, since i am already going for surgery, i wont mind spending a bit more to touch up instead of jus a straight nose.. i think i will go or a nose i want.. hopefull it will look good on me...=) heh heh heh
Andry at 4:07 PM today i had my exam "marketing" papers.. supposed to wake up at 3 to like study till next morning and go do the paper, but end up watching soccer for like 45 mins(1st half), and then at HT, i have to do my "business"... and its was like 405 before i can really studide... studied one chapter within like 45 mins la.. and then still got 4 more chapters to go, but too tired.. so took a rest and whoa! thts it, 7 am!! and my paper is at 9.. somehow jus try to study cause going to take cab to sch so ore time to nerd, but then feel asleep again.. and 710 and i suddenly waeup and like WTF man... and quickly bathh.. and rush to sch...and 8 when i left the house.. and i realised tht its 8 am and like hello, this is no cab at this time!!.. freak, end up taking bus and was like really really studying like a freak, standing up holding notes and etc.. shit balls...................
took the paper and like isaw the first question and first thing come to my mind, i am gonna get kicked out of poly because i failed b4 and this one fuck already... and somehow jus force my self to do... and in the end, i did actually atteempt like 90 percent of the questions!! wah, cant believe it sometimes.. i think can pass la, cannnot possible fail... quite confident man...
THOUGHTS
some times when i thought back abt my past relationship, i can feel so much hurt, even until today, and as each time i think abt it, i jus go for a smoke to release my hurt... seems like cigarette is my remedy to all the emotional pain.... but today, somehow i didnt feel so bad, i mean , i do still can feel the hurt.. the way the way i found out abt the whole thing and wad happened and the girl tht was so sweet and innocent-like an angel to my eyes, the things she did, i couldn believe.. and sometimes although time had sort of heal, i cant believe wad had happen at times... sometimes i wich to blog abt the whole story to the world to see, but is there any point.. i dun knoe.. but trust me, wad i went through, it hurts too much.. too too much... sometimes i still wonder why i havent commited sucidded at tht time? i realli wonder cause i am those tht dont really believe in living as life is only pain, but yet somehow i jus managed to survived it.. somehow... i realli didnt knoe wad happen, but perhaps my ego did play a part of me dying... i kept telling myself, hey andy u cannot die, u are jus too good to die.. yeahz, ego talks, but at least tht made me survived...........
darling, personal message for u, i do like u... i realli do... jus give me time to get things right... darling,*hugz* and -muakz-... if i am not serious abt this relationship, i would have never ask u to be my gf.. the girl before u, u knoe wad happened, i did not take her cause i did not feel for her at all, if all i wanted was a subsitute, she would have been the one.. but i did not, cause i didnt want to hurt her as i knoe tht she will be a subsitute, but for u, its a different story all together, i do feel for u.. if not i wouldnt have asked u to be my gf and get hurt... i do like u dear... hope u believe me....
Andry at 12:59 PM realised tht blogging is not my cup of tea la... simple.. yep.. =).. going to quite real soon...
Andry at 1:12 AM
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