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i had always praise the way saddam hussien, "porl port?", stalin, hitler, etc, for the way they manage to supress all the emotions tht they have to achieve great things.. nevertheless until today, i still do admire them for being able to supress all feelings they have to conquer all tht what they believe... and none tht i have talk to, ever believed in wad i say.. always saying in a way tht i am crazy to think that they are great man of their own, until today of my wisp class, i have found tht my believe has always been correct... my teacher was telling me stuff from another point of view.. and it was what i wanted to hear, tht all this tyrany is great people....
lets give u one example.. take mao zhetong.. he is the father of communism and is respected by many in this world... but do u knoe the facts? do u knoe tht before he became the government, he was declared a terrorise.. and like many of this great people i believe, many of them are called terrorise now... but what happens when they overthrow the government and win the war? they are no longer considered terrorise.. mao zhe tong is a classic example... so i hope this might change so of your stero type thinking... some of u guys are jus so blinded by the one side story tht have been given to you all.. can u all see the great man in them?
and do u guys actually believe tht us invaded iraq for "world peace"? pls dont make me laugh at your face again man.. its more to tht.. its the oil... as much as some of u does not want to believe, its the fact... if they really want world peace, us would have step into interfere "rough countries" and demolised them of nuclear powers tht they have.. the current strongest nuclear power tht still have them is north korea, and they are still reasearching it(north korea did not sign the agreement of disaming "nuclear".. so tht does support the idea..). and why is not the US doing anything? can anyone explain? .. so life is never as easy as it seems.. i jus want to laugh at all the foolish people tht believed in the one sided story...
Andry at 11:20 PM today i got fined 40 dollars for wearing slippers to sch.. out of point la... anwyay, my last week expense was abt 500 dollars... so its pretty heart pain man.. then its like i dun knoe hwo to buget my expense andwas thinking of a way, when i suddenly realise.. i shall budget 150 per week for my expense.. if anytime the balnace going to get low, then dun anyhow spend! ha.. thts the theory now.. shall keep it tht way man. nad hopefully it can cut down my expenses man...
so today i spent 30 dollars plus fine.. so left 80 dollars.. i doubt it will be enough for this week, but i shall offset for the next week when i overspend.. ya... guess this week no mambo wednesday.. so tempted to go zouk, but well, i guess not man.. gotta budget... well, actually see how things go la.. hehe.. guess still have the devil inside me.. LOL..
Andry at 10:49 PM today is a v.boring sunday manz... cant stand being so bored at home, yet suppose to study for my retest.. and yet having no mood to study.. oh manzzz.... it jus sort of sucks here...
well, feeling kinda blue... is it because tht i am bored thts why i am feeling blue? i am not sure... dun realli knoe my state of mind at times... how i wish my darling would be here with me.. sometimes she messages me and says she misses me.. and sometimes at tht mind, i am not missing her as i am occupied with my own things.. wad am i supposed to do? sweet talk back and say tht i miss her? irony isnt it? well, dear, at least now u knoe i am here missing u.. badly... but i guess u are doing your project with your group mates huh? hehe... and should be "not missing me" lol...
kinda thnking of my ex-hostel... the head master and mistress had be sacked off, through political means.. u knoe la, office politics and shit.. they have been my "parents" for 7 wonderful years of my life.. and now they are gone jus like the wind... they have been working there for 10 over years... i do feel sad for them.. i heard my fren said one of the master cried when he was having the farewell party... i can understand how they feel.. i feel so sad for them... wonder why life cannot be jus like normal.. u knoe? everything perfect.. no ones get hurt and stuff like tht? maybe afterall its tht damn "adam and eve"'s fault.. LOL...
maybe jus like avril lagvine song- "complicated"...
reaching this part again, i jus wanna tell u darling, i miss u so much.. jus want a hug from u now... thts all....
Andry at 4:02 PM its 2.45 am and i jus got back from my class gathering.. went to have buffet at marina south and also karaoke after tht... it was fun la.. meet up with my gf and she sent me to cuppage to meet my frens.. thanks darling.. it was sweet of u... and thanks for helping me with the resume too dear.. u knoe, every moment i spend with u, i can jus feel the closness slowly and slowly and u are jus conquering my pieces of heart with "u", bits by bits till one day when it will be filled totally with only "u"...
got to meet her grp of frens today.. well, actually only 2 of them.. one already had seen her for a while, and the other is by the name of "racheal/racheal" or her frens called her "popo".. ha!.. cute name huh? .. anyway, well she looks cute la.. hehe ;)... i guess i did put a bad impression on her frens, cause her fren was talking in a way tht i am not used to, and i thought she was trying to act like how sometimes my brother does whenever he is with girls, and out of dont knoe wad , i jus said ,"why u talking like tht?"... and then i realli dun knoe if she is offended in anyway...
well, today supposely to go atm twice! but in the end borrowed $$$ from my fren first as i lazy to go atm... i can see this week the number of times i went to atm is quite alot these days compared to last time.. but at least i still have my "part-time" job to support for all the luxury i am sort of affording.. not say things tht are damn expensive, but enough to spend in a way like wad i feel like spending, i can afford it man..
i guess thts all for this morning.. good night folks
Andry at 3:09 AM my dad jus called me again.. same old shit.. talk abt my future...
well, i think most probably i will have to go back to indo by next year june la.. thts wads the plan is now.. gotta see how things go la...
anwyay, i was marvelling at how this friednster website jus become famous overnight.. imagine 5 people add 5 people and so on and on.. and within 1 month, they have the whole world to themselve and with that they can start advertising and earn lots of money.. so imagine... overnight famous without having to even pay any advertisement...
and i have long since felt tht internet is becomeing fast too scary.. and i am not wrong, it jus makes the world small.. when did i ever discovered tht internet is scary? the day when i broke up and went to her website with her new bf kissing her.. can anyone feel what i felt? and tht was the time i felt that there will be those who will have to go through wad i went through.. its totally untolerable.. haha.. and now guess wad, my GF's good fren is actually my ex's fren.. wad a small world.. and if i do not rememebr wrongly, there was this time when my ex banged me on her blog and her fren, chris, actually bang me shit and stuff.. and best part, i seen chris the most number of times as her new frens... irony irony... screw this world.. sometimes u us want to go into isolation also cannot... can anyone realli see the vast power of internet? i am starting to feel how scary internet is becoming... but instead of succumbing to it, its time to use it and make good use of it while "internet" is still fresh.. do wad u want to do before its too stale.. my theory..;)
Andry at 10:55 PM "suEBee: wah brother..relax man ..just chill..these things expected one .."
u knoe wad su, when i come to think abt it, yah, i guess its really kinda of expected one huh.. like u said its inedvitable this shit gotta happen la... and come to think abt it, am i supposed to fight off this shit everytime it comes... well, u knoe wad, i guess its jus works this way when it comes to these kind of things........
darling, i guess like u said, i really over-reacted la.. i guess being tramuatised has really added fuel to my sudden anrgy thoughts... i will try to tone down and look at it and say " hey man, its inedvitable tht it will happen and u cant fight it all"... well, yep.. i guess thts abt it man...
Andry at 9:40 AM well well, wad are my thought today.. oh ya... today some guy tried to picked up my gf... haha.. wad can i say.. i am sick of these bastards who come and break up people.. i hate them and tht is especially if they come bastard me.. the thought of jus tht guy coming to try pick her up with adding her to msn and trying to make fren saying he is her fren fren.. i am like, wholloe, he knows tht she has got a bf, and yet, they still can come and mess around.. i am like really pissed off big time..
i dun wan to be some possesive freak but this is so damn obvious the guy is interested in my girl.. i am like, what the hell man.. is it possesive? i dun think so lor, afterall it is a new guy and why would he even bother to "want to see how i looked"(as the reason to why he added to her contact list) and " give his pic to my gf?" .. out of point man!.. and if he really thinks tht looks is tht all matters, maybe afterall he is jus a noob.. but on top of tht, i think he can go fuck off, cause i knoe i am better than tht linkanput shit.. am i supposed to jus keep quiet and let him woo my girl, or should i go confront him? and if i do confront him, will it mean i am some possesive shit?
since i am a guy, i can imagine wad the conversation with the fren would be.. it would goes something like tht
" hey, your fren not bad huh, intro lehz"
"well, got bf already"
"aiyahz, nvm la, got boyfren nvm la, jus try and see how la" (and his "jus try and see" can really break up and hurt people).. dear, if u are reading this, maybe u thinking"whao andry is possesive" but before u think tht line, would u like to see me talking to another girl? dun say the bikini girl(dun want to mention names), cause she was already my fren -"and i jus cant ignore her cause i have a gf", but how abt other new girls.. and i jus say i am only making frens wad and call them up talkin got them and saying only making frens what.. willl u be pissed or jealous? or even me looking at checking out other girls by looking? so before even if u really attempt to judge me, u think of your side too dear. not lecturing u dear, but jus want u to have a fair judgement before u conclude.
- can u see the bastardness? and of course he will not "attack" directly but slowly and chat up with, and thts the thing, if she knoes him naturally from class its nvm as maybe its really fren la, but then this one so so obvious he jus trying ot get my girl! thinking of this, it jus boils my blood. and come on, u guys out there knows whether this is bastard or not. u decide. i knoe how the guy's step will be, but yet if onli i can show girls how the steps are going to be and they can see it from the bird's eyes point of view... and pls dun tell me" maybe he only wants to be fren".. u trying ot tell me he only wants to be fren? haha*sacarsm*
and i told my gf, if u ever wan to break up, its fine but never ever because of another guy.. if really tht would happen one more time, i tell u people, girls are going ot be played man... thts wad i told her, we'll see if tht will happens.. hahahaha.. life.... wads life with all this complication? haha*sarcarsm*
today woke up feeling guilty tht i never meet my very very good fren from uk in singapore... so sorry fred, so so sorry.. the word busy is not an excuse.. i tried calling chairen but he never picked uped his phone.. so sorry my dear fren. sorry. it was really my fault.. so sorry fred.
Andry at 8:58 AM wad a small world this is manz... LOL... an enemy or rather an "ex-best fren" was enrolled to the police force with one of my chestnut school mate.. and my fren was jus smsing me abt it... for those who knoes him, his name is IVAn... lol... how ahz? its jus such a small concidence world la.. i also realise how many people plan to go overseas and shit, but in the end still stay back in singapore to do their studies... well, so life is never certain la.. thts all i can say manz.. hehe...
well, cant help but must booast my gf abit la, afterall she is my gf.. hehe.. i have yet to see her wear the same thing twice!!! i really think she one hell of stylo babe la... this is power chick!!! LOL.. "obs" chick! =D.. some of u readers will think, wtf man, this andry is freaking bhb.. but those who knoes me knoes my pattern la huh.. and i knoe u all knoe i a bit bhb.. LOL.. so haha, u all, i am sure can take it la!!* winks winks* ;)
Andry at 12:22 AM seems like a real long time where i really feel like blogging huh... well, nowadays life has been generally good.. well, nohting mcuh to blog except my "supposely" gf, but yet i wouldnt wanna blog abt her cause its between us la, and somehow jus feel uncomfortable talking abt her la.. hehe...
cant really describe what is our state of relationship la.. but i think jus take things slowly..=)...
anyway, wad thoughts are there? reallly nmothing much la.. i guess u people will be bored with my daily routine.. lol.. so how ahz? tell u wad, go check this out.. nice video clip...
http://pirate.shu.edu/~jarvisju/flash/kikia.swf
make sure u check it out... LOL...
Andry at 2:10 PM well, no much thoughts to blog, shall jus blag wads happening to me recently la... well, maybe can say i am almost attached la.. and wad else, hmm, i also dont knoe manz... basically thts the only topic la... nothing more interesting... i think now she quite angry with me la... haiz
hey blurrie, sorry ok? dun like tht la...
realised tht nowadays when i blog, its no longer the direct thoughts with heck care mood and jus blog.. somehow quite concious with my image now.. how to say ahz, aiyahz, jus hope u readers get wad i mean la.. or maybe nowadays i am happy therfore no blogs.. not sure myself la.. hehe=).. yahz, i think thts the way i do my bloggin, when i sad, then i'll blog la.. hehe.. ciaoz
Andry at 9:00 PM jus woke up and very sleepy, gotta go back sleep soon.. slept at abt 11 am today.. yesterday slept 2 hours.. haha.. so weill, yeahz, pretty tired... dun know what to blog again, too early the day and no thinouhgt have been to my mind....
anyway, yesterday bbq, most of my sec schoolmates were there la... and they jus do not change.. lol .. same old nonsense, except maybe the jokes have changed.. haha.. ehz, u knoe what, psast few paragrahp, was forcing myself to blog.. so i shall stop here la.. no mood =).. current mood jus happy la.. cioaz.
Andry at 2:13 PM how time jus files... had lunch with my roommate, got home and before i knoe it, its already 130 pm... then best part is have to reach bukit batok at 440... it jus kinda sucks u knoe, its like the most i can rest is 2 hours before i need to get ready.. nothing much to blog today la... thoughts there are, but yet fearing to blog cause fearing people whom i knoe tht visits my blog sees my blog will knoe.. as i said before, the more people visit your website, the more scary it becomes... even my roommate who is those who cant be bothered also has been coming to my website.. shucks manz... who knoes maybe lew kuan yew comes here too? LOL.. jus kidding la.. haha
Andry at 1:47 PM today one of my fren, she's going to apply for a job to kill time.. then i was thinking of how my fren always telling me to get a job to kill time..... but sometimes when i think abt those job,the amt they are paying for the amount of work needed to do.. its jus kinda sickening in a way.. i mean its like 5 to 6 dollars an hour and have to endure all the nonsense.. to me, its like when i jus compare tht outside job with my job, i am like," the pay sucks for the amt of work needed"... i do have a personal job myself, but its a "slack" job, and requires not much time.. although not say earn a lot, maybe abt 500 to 1.5 k month la... and the thought of jus comparing both job, the pay might be even lower for working outside and on top of tht, the amt of effort needed to put in for that amt of money sort of makes me dont want to work la...
see thts the problem here, last time i had always wanted a slack job, and now even if it, i am not happy. not sayiny a lot of money now, but jus trying to imply tht i have a good job, and supposely damn relax and can have all the quality time to myself, but yet still not happy.. maybe i am jus spoilt for choices la.. have a job tht requires little time to work, but yet not happy.. so how? i also dunno la..... maybe i should also get a job outside, and as i am typing this, i jus feel a bit shity..
well, she did the job to kill time, ha.. jus like my "ice-cream" fren la.. haha.. how? maybe i should get a job to kill time? but when i think abt it again, how much can i earn for the next 2 months before my attachment? grrr.. in a delima now la... is it really worth it to work jus to kill time? i dun knoe man.. haiz.. haiz.. delima delimaaaa now... most probably i think wont be getting a job outside la.. too sianz already... hmm.. have been thinking abt opening my own internet betting website, but tht requires quite a lot of capital and top of tht, its illegal in singapore- this is the main issue here..... so.. well.. haiz, it would be fun to have tht website, but at the same time, if i really do successful for the internet website, its another slack job.. wth manz..... oh god, cant stand myself...
sometimes i wish maybe being a pig would be nice la.. no need to think so much.. jus be stupid, eat, sleep, eat then get eaten.. haha.. i dun mind, no need so much stress in life... i do hate being a human seriously speaking, as much as sometimes it really feels nice to be human, i think of the future that the current shoikness is not going to last, i feel a bit stress.. aiyahz, dont knoe what to say.. maybe be mosquito better la... haha.. wtf right.. okok.. and 1 more think i hate abt myself, i think too much.. really think too much already.. but jus cant help myself from thinking.. how? sometimes i jus hate hate myself for being thinking too much and i jus cant help it..jus imagine my blog, is all filled with endless thoughts everyday and so long paragraph.. how?... haiz.. wadeva la.. ciaoz.
Andry at 5:58 PM today, i am quite disappointed with myself.. i had debating class, and was eventually debating against a girl... and out of some emotional few second of madness, i said things tht i think might have embarassed her making her look stupid... its was an emotion sudden outbreak.. i thought i had learnt to control my emotions, but it seems tht today it showed tht i said things without thinking again... it wasnt anything tht bad as in hurtful ,instead jus embarassing her as i magnified the mistake she made, but the main point here is tht i jus said things without using my head to think...thought i had learnt to control, but well... jus kinda disappointed with myself tht i did not think before i talked, whcih eventually leds to the fact tht i have not master the skill of controlling my emotions, which eventually led to me being disappointed with myself....
was listening to the song attentively "to the moon and back" by savage garden.. as mush as th song sounds so hip, it is a damn sad song.. i feel kinda sad when i listen to the song now, to think i always dance to the song liking the beat of it... here is the lyrics... i think this song desserve some recognition for the world class lyrics instead
"she's taking her time, making up the reasons, to justified all the hurt inside , guess she knoes, from the smile and the looks in their eyes, everyone has got their theory abt the bitter world, they saying" mum never love them much and dad never keep in touch, thts why she shys away from human affection, but somewhere is the private place, she packs ther bag into outer space and now she's waiting for the right kind of body to come. and she say to him " she saying love flying to the moon and back, if u would be if u would be my baby ... etc.. she cant remember a time when she felt needed ,if love was burden she was color blind, all her frens they have been trialed for treason and crimes tht never defined...shes saying love is like a barren place and is never, etc... its like a jorney i dun have a map for, so its going to take a guy"............. the rest u all go listen your self ok.. cause i had spent 20 mins trying ot get the lyrics already, and need still have long way to go as the song time is 5.20 mins.. and still cant get some parts of the song.. but its a real sad song la.. caioz.
Andry at 9:39 PM oh, sometimes i think abt those negative comments, i really wonder who can they be.. the only people i know tht knoes my website are my frens and my "ex
frens".... so who could possibly put such comments.. well.. u guys judge... oh, btw, i dont go around those add to some link site to get hits.. i dont do that kind of shit la, so fake... so couldnt have been people from there... and at the same time it couldnt have been the last ten hits from "blogger" website, cause i remebr tht there was still no comments this morning... anyway, if u guys are reading this, seriously speaking, can u grow up? i mean its like wth man..like "heloo"
wah, today was one of those days u knoe.. one of those "screwed uped" day........ basically went back my previous house to clear some stuff, and images jus kept coming abck when i dun even want to think of it... wadeva la... and then its like after school, supposed to go to malaysia to meet my fren and hang out with him, but in the end supposely to meet my mum at abt 630... she supposed to call me at 430.. so canceled the trip to malaysia as she is going back to tomolo... best part reached home thinking could get some rest as before going to meet my mum, i brought the wrong key out, reached home at 530.. then nvm , i thought can jus wait until she called then go meet her, but in the end she never called... and i waited till 930 until someone actually is coming back so as to can open the door for me... and durin gthose time, my battery was flat.. so i was even more lonely man.. wtf right.... anyway, its over, the whole ordeal.. i am glad.. now in the comforts of my room.. hehe.. time for some yogurt.. hehe...
Andry at 10:32 PM well... no mood to blog la....... jus feeling kinda blue now manz..... aiyahz... hai....... nvm la.. nothing much.... =).. dont knoe also why blogging when nothing to blog... anwyay jus feeling sad now..........
but its all in the mind la... all in the mind.... going to sleep now la, damn tired la, slept very late yesterday night... ciaoz...
Andry at 1:20 PM well, today is a real pain in the ass la.. thought could come home and take a break then go newton meet my frens for dinner, but then my ex-landlord gave me a call wanting to "settle" some stuff.. i am like WTH manz, its like i already forfieted my one month deposit, and well, he thought i was still staying at the house... haha, i guess its actually the agent fault cause the agent didnt tell him.. wanted to jus heck care abt the whole shit and jus let my agent settle the stuff, but come to think of tht time when the agent was really nice to me.. well, jus gotta make a trip down all the way from thomson back to hillview.. kinda sianz, but no choice la.. ;)
ok la, gotta go now, its already 620, and time to go down.. gotta take 3 bus there, and my stamach is famishing.. so can u imagine... come to think abt it, the worst part will have yet to come.. going back to the damn house and seeing images back of my ex again... cant avoid it... even typing this, i can already see her in my mind.. i knoe its been a long time already, but sometimes the memories jus comes back... if i had a antitode to 4get al this, i would ate it...
will keep up to date and see if my fren's sister do win miss malaysia!!!.. oh, btw, she won second for miss penang, but thats not the best part, the best part was the winner of miss penang.. she screwed her way to win the competiton for your info.. her number is number 2...haha.. dont be surprised if she wins tonight.. number2... but i doubt so la, as much as she can screw her way up, her english is so poor.. so well........ i dont knoe.. =)
Andry at 6:32 PM well well, lets see... well, i shall officially declar that i really really give up on my target liao... =).. it was sad cause yeah i really do like her... but like it was ever said, it takes two hands to clap... =).. at least we still frens, and i am glad tht is the way it is huh.. yeah blurrie? haha.... a bit sad, but i will be fine. no worries manz, i am a grown up, can take care of myself.
sometimes after learning what u have learnt, u wish u have another chance for a new fresh start, but well, life is never easy.. so like tht la..=).. at least i have my frens and top of tht everything else.. =)
anyway, moi roommate supposed to go swimming, and but 5 mins and he came back... and i asked him why.. and his exact words," when i went down, i saw no more sun, then boring already".. ahha.. we having a good laugh over it manz.. haha...
http://www.missmalaysia-world.com.my/index01.htm ..... anyway, my roomate sister is in miss malaysia... look out for number 16... yeahz, thts the one... give her some support man!!! go go go... bebek, hope your sister win yah!!! the competition is tomolo! so give her support yeah!!!
thts all for today folks!! ciaoz
Andry at 6:51 PM lets see.... today on my way home, i was taking a bus with my fren... and he is the sort of person who is kinda low on confidence.. how to tell him "its all in the mind?".. i mean although i told him its all in the mind, i doubt he understand what i am saying manz... sometimes i look at so many so so many people around me, i can see the low confidence... how i wish i can jus tell them its all in the mind and they can get it.. wouldnt the world be a better place this way? but at the same time as i am saying this, maybe i am bias cause i do have a lot of things tht most people dont and therfore i am confident and therfore i easily says its all in the mind.. maybe if one day i am broke, no money etc, then see whether i still can say to myself " its all in the mind" haha.. i do sympatise with those tht is low on confidence cause i tell u all, i have been to the lowest of the lowest in my life... really too low... but yet i dont knoe what i can tell some of them? cause they really have nothing in their life(maybe they do have something, but its jus tht to me, its nothing)... aiyahz dont knoe what to say to them, sometimes as much as i want to say things to booast their morale, it might have the opposite effect it will show them more tht they dont have it... i knoe reaching this part of the blog u guys are confused..
nvm la.. thts all for today... its all in the mind people!!!! only if u had been through this shit, then u will understand why i say its all in the mind...
looking at my dad when he lost 1 million dollars on stocks when his asset at tht time was 1.4 million, he still went through it and did not see him cry or super depress.. i guess experience plays a part...
for now, i dont think any one can bring me down.. i have everything tht i can have for a teenager now.. what else do i want? really nothing much more.. happy with my life for now la, maybe hence the blog of "confidence" .. haha.. ciaoz..
and yet, as confident as i am now, its not forever, and i am scared that the day when i am fall is coming... the higher u go, the harder u fall...
Andry at 3:48 PM well, today is i got 5 out of 100 for my test.. thts how bad i got la.. i knoe thts the region i am going ot get.. jus hate memory work... dont knoe why, but since young, never been good in memory work la....
nothing much to blog also la, jus very tired today la...
maybe a few things abt the babe from my class huh?? hehe.. so far seeing her almost everyday, i have yet to see her wear the same clothes or even if have, she has too many until i 4got liao!!! hehe.. thts the babe for u la...
dont knoe wht also, now almost everyday eat at 1130, then eat at 4 and then eat at 7 and then eat at 1 am... dont knoe whats wrong with me manz... very fast hungry la... jus ate 3 hours ago and i am so damn hungry now...
ok la, no thoughts today as too tired, mentally tired.. ciaoz..
Andry at 3:40 PM sometimes i think, if i do update every day abt my blog, my readers will not be able to follow... but u knoe what i think, well, too bad, cause i am sure tht my close frens will be interested in what i have to say even though maybe the will jus read only the latest entry as it is too long.. but my thinking is tht if its my close fren, then they'll read some.. and when i coe to think abt it, i rather have my close fren read what i have to say then any other people la...
i realised girls is not abt money, although u need to at least provide the minimum, and girls are not the most important thing in life... and i also realised tht last time when i told my fren how wonderful my previous looked, he laughed and said she was ok looking(tht was when i jus broke up), and said to me, andry, last time when i broke off, i also think my ex damn damn choi... but now, once u over her, like i did, i think she look ok la... its like tht".. then i keep insisitng how pretty my ex and shit, and he jus laughed at me and say, u are jus like me last time.. everything... haha... and now, i do agree with what he have to say manz... i guess when u are in love, the person can jus look so good... i am sure those experienced people whom read my blog will understand huh?...
ok la, thts all for today... currently listening to a song called "life got cold".. damn nice song, so better check it out.. take care manz..
my mum jus called me and wanted to borrow from me 500 dollars... to gamble in the ship.. i kinda pissed ...
Andry at 8:31 AM
lets give u one example.. take mao zhetong.. he is the father of communism and is respected by many in this world... but do u knoe the facts? do u knoe tht before he became the government, he was declared a terrorise.. and like many of this great people i believe, many of them are called terrorise now... but what happens when they overthrow the government and win the war? they are no longer considered terrorise.. mao zhe tong is a classic example... so i hope this might change so of your stero type thinking... some of u guys are jus so blinded by the one side story tht have been given to you all.. can u all see the great man in them?
and do u guys actually believe tht us invaded iraq for "world peace"? pls dont make me laugh at your face again man.. its more to tht.. its the oil... as much as some of u does not want to believe, its the fact... if they really want world peace, us would have step into interfere "rough countries" and demolised them of nuclear powers tht they have.. the current strongest nuclear power tht still have them is north korea, and they are still reasearching it(north korea did not sign the agreement of disaming "nuclear".. so tht does support the idea..). and why is not the US doing anything? can anyone explain? .. so life is never as easy as it seems.. i jus want to laugh at all the foolish people tht believed in the one sided story...
Andry at 11:20 PM today i got fined 40 dollars for wearing slippers to sch.. out of point la... anwyay, my last week expense was abt 500 dollars... so its pretty heart pain man.. then its like i dun knoe hwo to buget my expense andwas thinking of a way, when i suddenly realise.. i shall budget 150 per week for my expense.. if anytime the balnace going to get low, then dun anyhow spend! ha.. thts the theory now.. shall keep it tht way man. nad hopefully it can cut down my expenses man...
so today i spent 30 dollars plus fine.. so left 80 dollars.. i doubt it will be enough for this week, but i shall offset for the next week when i overspend.. ya... guess this week no mambo wednesday.. so tempted to go zouk, but well, i guess not man.. gotta budget... well, actually see how things go la.. hehe.. guess still have the devil inside me.. LOL..
Andry at 10:49 PM today is a v.boring sunday manz... cant stand being so bored at home, yet suppose to study for my retest.. and yet having no mood to study.. oh manzzz.... it jus sort of sucks here...
well, feeling kinda blue... is it because tht i am bored thts why i am feeling blue? i am not sure... dun realli knoe my state of mind at times... how i wish my darling would be here with me.. sometimes she messages me and says she misses me.. and sometimes at tht mind, i am not missing her as i am occupied with my own things.. wad am i supposed to do? sweet talk back and say tht i miss her? irony isnt it? well, dear, at least now u knoe i am here missing u.. badly... but i guess u are doing your project with your group mates huh? hehe... and should be "not missing me" lol...
kinda thnking of my ex-hostel... the head master and mistress had be sacked off, through political means.. u knoe la, office politics and shit.. they have been my "parents" for 7 wonderful years of my life.. and now they are gone jus like the wind... they have been working there for 10 over years... i do feel sad for them.. i heard my fren said one of the master cried when he was having the farewell party... i can understand how they feel.. i feel so sad for them... wonder why life cannot be jus like normal.. u knoe? everything perfect.. no ones get hurt and stuff like tht? maybe afterall its tht damn "adam and eve"'s fault.. LOL...
maybe jus like avril lagvine song- "complicated"...
reaching this part again, i jus wanna tell u darling, i miss u so much.. jus want a hug from u now... thts all....
Andry at 4:02 PM its 2.45 am and i jus got back from my class gathering.. went to have buffet at marina south and also karaoke after tht... it was fun la.. meet up with my gf and she sent me to cuppage to meet my frens.. thanks darling.. it was sweet of u... and thanks for helping me with the resume too dear.. u knoe, every moment i spend with u, i can jus feel the closness slowly and slowly and u are jus conquering my pieces of heart with "u", bits by bits till one day when it will be filled totally with only "u"...
got to meet her grp of frens today.. well, actually only 2 of them.. one already had seen her for a while, and the other is by the name of "racheal/racheal" or her frens called her "popo".. ha!.. cute name huh? .. anyway, well she looks cute la.. hehe ;)... i guess i did put a bad impression on her frens, cause her fren was talking in a way tht i am not used to, and i thought she was trying to act like how sometimes my brother does whenever he is with girls, and out of dont knoe wad , i jus said ,"why u talking like tht?"... and then i realli dun knoe if she is offended in anyway...
well, today supposely to go atm twice! but in the end borrowed $$$ from my fren first as i lazy to go atm... i can see this week the number of times i went to atm is quite alot these days compared to last time.. but at least i still have my "part-time" job to support for all the luxury i am sort of affording.. not say things tht are damn expensive, but enough to spend in a way like wad i feel like spending, i can afford it man..
i guess thts all for this morning.. good night folks
Andry at 3:09 AM my dad jus called me again.. same old shit.. talk abt my future...
well, i think most probably i will have to go back to indo by next year june la.. thts wads the plan is now.. gotta see how things go la...
anwyay, i was marvelling at how this friednster website jus become famous overnight.. imagine 5 people add 5 people and so on and on.. and within 1 month, they have the whole world to themselve and with that they can start advertising and earn lots of money.. so imagine... overnight famous without having to even pay any advertisement...
and i have long since felt tht internet is becomeing fast too scary.. and i am not wrong, it jus makes the world small.. when did i ever discovered tht internet is scary? the day when i broke up and went to her website with her new bf kissing her.. can anyone feel what i felt? and tht was the time i felt that there will be those who will have to go through wad i went through.. its totally untolerable.. haha.. and now guess wad, my GF's good fren is actually my ex's fren.. wad a small world.. and if i do not rememebr wrongly, there was this time when my ex banged me on her blog and her fren, chris, actually bang me shit and stuff.. and best part, i seen chris the most number of times as her new frens... irony irony... screw this world.. sometimes u us want to go into isolation also cannot... can anyone realli see the vast power of internet? i am starting to feel how scary internet is becoming... but instead of succumbing to it, its time to use it and make good use of it while "internet" is still fresh.. do wad u want to do before its too stale.. my theory..;)
Andry at 10:55 PM "suEBee: wah brother..relax man ..just chill..these things expected one .."
u knoe wad su, when i come to think abt it, yah, i guess its really kinda of expected one huh.. like u said its inedvitable this shit gotta happen la... and come to think abt it, am i supposed to fight off this shit everytime it comes... well, u knoe wad, i guess its jus works this way when it comes to these kind of things........
darling, i guess like u said, i really over-reacted la.. i guess being tramuatised has really added fuel to my sudden anrgy thoughts... i will try to tone down and look at it and say " hey man, its inedvitable tht it will happen and u cant fight it all"... well, yep.. i guess thts abt it man...
Andry at 9:40 AM well well, wad are my thought today.. oh ya... today some guy tried to picked up my gf... haha.. wad can i say.. i am sick of these bastards who come and break up people.. i hate them and tht is especially if they come bastard me.. the thought of jus tht guy coming to try pick her up with adding her to msn and trying to make fren saying he is her fren fren.. i am like, wholloe, he knows tht she has got a bf, and yet, they still can come and mess around.. i am like really pissed off big time..
i dun wan to be some possesive freak but this is so damn obvious the guy is interested in my girl.. i am like, what the hell man.. is it possesive? i dun think so lor, afterall it is a new guy and why would he even bother to "want to see how i looked"(as the reason to why he added to her contact list) and " give his pic to my gf?" .. out of point man!.. and if he really thinks tht looks is tht all matters, maybe afterall he is jus a noob.. but on top of tht, i think he can go fuck off, cause i knoe i am better than tht linkanput shit.. am i supposed to jus keep quiet and let him woo my girl, or should i go confront him? and if i do confront him, will it mean i am some possesive shit?
since i am a guy, i can imagine wad the conversation with the fren would be.. it would goes something like tht
" hey, your fren not bad huh, intro lehz"
"well, got bf already"
"aiyahz, nvm la, got boyfren nvm la, jus try and see how la" (and his "jus try and see" can really break up and hurt people).. dear, if u are reading this, maybe u thinking"whao andry is possesive" but before u think tht line, would u like to see me talking to another girl? dun say the bikini girl(dun want to mention names), cause she was already my fren -"and i jus cant ignore her cause i have a gf", but how abt other new girls.. and i jus say i am only making frens wad and call them up talkin got them and saying only making frens what.. willl u be pissed or jealous? or even me looking at checking out other girls by looking? so before even if u really attempt to judge me, u think of your side too dear. not lecturing u dear, but jus want u to have a fair judgement before u conclude.
- can u see the bastardness? and of course he will not "attack" directly but slowly and chat up with, and thts the thing, if she knoes him naturally from class its nvm as maybe its really fren la, but then this one so so obvious he jus trying ot get my girl! thinking of this, it jus boils my blood. and come on, u guys out there knows whether this is bastard or not. u decide. i knoe how the guy's step will be, but yet if onli i can show girls how the steps are going to be and they can see it from the bird's eyes point of view... and pls dun tell me" maybe he only wants to be fren".. u trying ot tell me he only wants to be fren? haha*sacarsm*
and i told my gf, if u ever wan to break up, its fine but never ever because of another guy.. if really tht would happen one more time, i tell u people, girls are going ot be played man... thts wad i told her, we'll see if tht will happens.. hahahaha.. life.... wads life with all this complication? haha*sarcarsm*
today woke up feeling guilty tht i never meet my very very good fren from uk in singapore... so sorry fred, so so sorry.. the word busy is not an excuse.. i tried calling chairen but he never picked uped his phone.. so sorry my dear fren. sorry. it was really my fault.. so sorry fred.
Andry at 8:58 AM wad a small world this is manz... LOL... an enemy or rather an "ex-best fren" was enrolled to the police force with one of my chestnut school mate.. and my fren was jus smsing me abt it... for those who knoes him, his name is IVAn... lol... how ahz? its jus such a small concidence world la.. i also realise how many people plan to go overseas and shit, but in the end still stay back in singapore to do their studies... well, so life is never certain la.. thts all i can say manz.. hehe...
well, cant help but must booast my gf abit la, afterall she is my gf.. hehe.. i have yet to see her wear the same thing twice!!! i really think she one hell of stylo babe la... this is power chick!!! LOL.. "obs" chick! =D.. some of u readers will think, wtf man, this andry is freaking bhb.. but those who knoes me knoes my pattern la huh.. and i knoe u all knoe i a bit bhb.. LOL.. so haha, u all, i am sure can take it la!!* winks winks* ;)
Andry at 12:22 AM seems like a real long time where i really feel like blogging huh... well, nowadays life has been generally good.. well, nohting mcuh to blog except my "supposely" gf, but yet i wouldnt wanna blog abt her cause its between us la, and somehow jus feel uncomfortable talking abt her la.. hehe...
cant really describe what is our state of relationship la.. but i think jus take things slowly..=)...
anyway, wad thoughts are there? reallly nmothing much la.. i guess u people will be bored with my daily routine.. lol.. so how ahz? tell u wad, go check this out.. nice video clip...
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make sure u check it out... LOL...
Andry at 2:10 PM well, no much thoughts to blog, shall jus blag wads happening to me recently la... well, maybe can say i am almost attached la.. and wad else, hmm, i also dont knoe manz... basically thts the only topic la... nothing more interesting... i think now she quite angry with me la... haiz
hey blurrie, sorry ok? dun like tht la...
realised tht nowadays when i blog, its no longer the direct thoughts with heck care mood and jus blog.. somehow quite concious with my image now.. how to say ahz, aiyahz, jus hope u readers get wad i mean la.. or maybe nowadays i am happy therfore no blogs.. not sure myself la.. hehe=).. yahz, i think thts the way i do my bloggin, when i sad, then i'll blog la.. hehe.. ciaoz
Andry at 9:00 PM jus woke up and very sleepy, gotta go back sleep soon.. slept at abt 11 am today.. yesterday slept 2 hours.. haha.. so weill, yeahz, pretty tired... dun know what to blog again, too early the day and no thinouhgt have been to my mind....
anyway, yesterday bbq, most of my sec schoolmates were there la... and they jus do not change.. lol .. same old nonsense, except maybe the jokes have changed.. haha.. ehz, u knoe what, psast few paragrahp, was forcing myself to blog.. so i shall stop here la.. no mood =).. current mood jus happy la.. cioaz.
Andry at 2:13 PM how time jus files... had lunch with my roommate, got home and before i knoe it, its already 130 pm... then best part is have to reach bukit batok at 440... it jus kinda sucks u knoe, its like the most i can rest is 2 hours before i need to get ready.. nothing much to blog today la... thoughts there are, but yet fearing to blog cause fearing people whom i knoe tht visits my blog sees my blog will knoe.. as i said before, the more people visit your website, the more scary it becomes... even my roommate who is those who cant be bothered also has been coming to my website.. shucks manz... who knoes maybe lew kuan yew comes here too? LOL.. jus kidding la.. haha
Andry at 1:47 PM today one of my fren, she's going to apply for a job to kill time.. then i was thinking of how my fren always telling me to get a job to kill time..... but sometimes when i think abt those job,the amt they are paying for the amount of work needed to do.. its jus kinda sickening in a way.. i mean its like 5 to 6 dollars an hour and have to endure all the nonsense.. to me, its like when i jus compare tht outside job with my job, i am like," the pay sucks for the amt of work needed"... i do have a personal job myself, but its a "slack" job, and requires not much time.. although not say earn a lot, maybe abt 500 to 1.5 k month la... and the thought of jus comparing both job, the pay might be even lower for working outside and on top of tht, the amt of effort needed to put in for that amt of money sort of makes me dont want to work la...
see thts the problem here, last time i had always wanted a slack job, and now even if it, i am not happy. not sayiny a lot of money now, but jus trying to imply tht i have a good job, and supposely damn relax and can have all the quality time to myself, but yet still not happy.. maybe i am jus spoilt for choices la.. have a job tht requires little time to work, but yet not happy.. so how? i also dunno la..... maybe i should also get a job outside, and as i am typing this, i jus feel a bit shity..
well, she did the job to kill time, ha.. jus like my "ice-cream" fren la.. haha.. how? maybe i should get a job to kill time? but when i think abt it again, how much can i earn for the next 2 months before my attachment? grrr.. in a delima now la... is it really worth it to work jus to kill time? i dun knoe man.. haiz.. haiz.. delima delimaaaa now... most probably i think wont be getting a job outside la.. too sianz already... hmm.. have been thinking abt opening my own internet betting website, but tht requires quite a lot of capital and top of tht, its illegal in singapore- this is the main issue here..... so.. well.. haiz, it would be fun to have tht website, but at the same time, if i really do successful for the internet website, its another slack job.. wth manz..... oh god, cant stand myself...
sometimes i wish maybe being a pig would be nice la.. no need to think so much.. jus be stupid, eat, sleep, eat then get eaten.. haha.. i dun mind, no need so much stress in life... i do hate being a human seriously speaking, as much as sometimes it really feels nice to be human, i think of the future that the current shoikness is not going to last, i feel a bit stress.. aiyahz, dont knoe what to say.. maybe be mosquito better la... haha.. wtf right.. okok.. and 1 more think i hate abt myself, i think too much.. really think too much already.. but jus cant help myself from thinking.. how? sometimes i jus hate hate myself for being thinking too much and i jus cant help it..jus imagine my blog, is all filled with endless thoughts everyday and so long paragraph.. how?... haiz.. wadeva la.. ciaoz.
Andry at 5:58 PM today, i am quite disappointed with myself.. i had debating class, and was eventually debating against a girl... and out of some emotional few second of madness, i said things tht i think might have embarassed her making her look stupid... its was an emotion sudden outbreak.. i thought i had learnt to control my emotions, but it seems tht today it showed tht i said things without thinking again... it wasnt anything tht bad as in hurtful ,instead jus embarassing her as i magnified the mistake she made, but the main point here is tht i jus said things without using my head to think...thought i had learnt to control, but well... jus kinda disappointed with myself tht i did not think before i talked, whcih eventually leds to the fact tht i have not master the skill of controlling my emotions, which eventually led to me being disappointed with myself....
was listening to the song attentively "to the moon and back" by savage garden.. as mush as th song sounds so hip, it is a damn sad song.. i feel kinda sad when i listen to the song now, to think i always dance to the song liking the beat of it... here is the lyrics... i think this song desserve some recognition for the world class lyrics instead
"she's taking her time, making up the reasons, to justified all the hurt inside , guess she knoes, from the smile and the looks in their eyes, everyone has got their theory abt the bitter world, they saying" mum never love them much and dad never keep in touch, thts why she shys away from human affection, but somewhere is the private place, she packs ther bag into outer space and now she's waiting for the right kind of body to come. and she say to him " she saying love flying to the moon and back, if u would be if u would be my baby ... etc.. she cant remember a time when she felt needed ,if love was burden she was color blind, all her frens they have been trialed for treason and crimes tht never defined...shes saying love is like a barren place and is never, etc... its like a jorney i dun have a map for, so its going to take a guy"............. the rest u all go listen your self ok.. cause i had spent 20 mins trying ot get the lyrics already, and need still have long way to go as the song time is 5.20 mins.. and still cant get some parts of the song.. but its a real sad song la.. caioz.
Andry at 9:39 PM oh, sometimes i think abt those negative comments, i really wonder who can they be.. the only people i know tht knoes my website are my frens and my "ex
frens".... so who could possibly put such comments.. well.. u guys judge... oh, btw, i dont go around those add to some link site to get hits.. i dont do that kind of shit la, so fake... so couldnt have been people from there... and at the same time it couldnt have been the last ten hits from "blogger" website, cause i remebr tht there was still no comments this morning... anyway, if u guys are reading this, seriously speaking, can u grow up? i mean its like wth man..like "heloo"
wah, today was one of those days u knoe.. one of those "screwed uped" day........ basically went back my previous house to clear some stuff, and images jus kept coming abck when i dun even want to think of it... wadeva la... and then its like after school, supposed to go to malaysia to meet my fren and hang out with him, but in the end supposely to meet my mum at abt 630... she supposed to call me at 430.. so canceled the trip to malaysia as she is going back to tomolo... best part reached home thinking could get some rest as before going to meet my mum, i brought the wrong key out, reached home at 530.. then nvm , i thought can jus wait until she called then go meet her, but in the end she never called... and i waited till 930 until someone actually is coming back so as to can open the door for me... and durin gthose time, my battery was flat.. so i was even more lonely man.. wtf right.... anyway, its over, the whole ordeal.. i am glad.. now in the comforts of my room.. hehe.. time for some yogurt.. hehe...
Andry at 10:32 PM well... no mood to blog la....... jus feeling kinda blue now manz..... aiyahz... hai....... nvm la.. nothing much.... =).. dont knoe also why blogging when nothing to blog... anwyay jus feeling sad now..........
but its all in the mind la... all in the mind.... going to sleep now la, damn tired la, slept very late yesterday night... ciaoz...
Andry at 1:20 PM well, today is a real pain in the ass la.. thought could come home and take a break then go newton meet my frens for dinner, but then my ex-landlord gave me a call wanting to "settle" some stuff.. i am like WTH manz, its like i already forfieted my one month deposit, and well, he thought i was still staying at the house... haha, i guess its actually the agent fault cause the agent didnt tell him.. wanted to jus heck care abt the whole shit and jus let my agent settle the stuff, but come to think of tht time when the agent was really nice to me.. well, jus gotta make a trip down all the way from thomson back to hillview.. kinda sianz, but no choice la.. ;)
ok la, gotta go now, its already 620, and time to go down.. gotta take 3 bus there, and my stamach is famishing.. so can u imagine... come to think abt it, the worst part will have yet to come.. going back to the damn house and seeing images back of my ex again... cant avoid it... even typing this, i can already see her in my mind.. i knoe its been a long time already, but sometimes the memories jus comes back... if i had a antitode to 4get al this, i would ate it...
will keep up to date and see if my fren's sister do win miss malaysia!!!.. oh, btw, she won second for miss penang, but thats not the best part, the best part was the winner of miss penang.. she screwed her way to win the competiton for your info.. her number is number 2...haha.. dont be surprised if she wins tonight.. number2... but i doubt so la, as much as she can screw her way up, her english is so poor.. so well........ i dont knoe.. =)
Andry at 6:32 PM well well, lets see... well, i shall officially declar that i really really give up on my target liao... =).. it was sad cause yeah i really do like her... but like it was ever said, it takes two hands to clap... =).. at least we still frens, and i am glad tht is the way it is huh.. yeah blurrie? haha.... a bit sad, but i will be fine. no worries manz, i am a grown up, can take care of myself.
sometimes after learning what u have learnt, u wish u have another chance for a new fresh start, but well, life is never easy.. so like tht la..=).. at least i have my frens and top of tht everything else.. =)
anyway, moi roommate supposed to go swimming, and but 5 mins and he came back... and i asked him why.. and his exact words," when i went down, i saw no more sun, then boring already".. ahha.. we having a good laugh over it manz.. haha...
http://www.missmalaysia-world.com.my/index01.htm ..... anyway, my roomate sister is in miss malaysia... look out for number 16... yeahz, thts the one... give her some support man!!! go go go... bebek, hope your sister win yah!!! the competition is tomolo! so give her support yeah!!!
thts all for today folks!! ciaoz
Andry at 6:51 PM lets see.... today on my way home, i was taking a bus with my fren... and he is the sort of person who is kinda low on confidence.. how to tell him "its all in the mind?".. i mean although i told him its all in the mind, i doubt he understand what i am saying manz... sometimes i look at so many so so many people around me, i can see the low confidence... how i wish i can jus tell them its all in the mind and they can get it.. wouldnt the world be a better place this way? but at the same time as i am saying this, maybe i am bias cause i do have a lot of things tht most people dont and therfore i am confident and therfore i easily says its all in the mind.. maybe if one day i am broke, no money etc, then see whether i still can say to myself " its all in the mind" haha.. i do sympatise with those tht is low on confidence cause i tell u all, i have been to the lowest of the lowest in my life... really too low... but yet i dont knoe what i can tell some of them? cause they really have nothing in their life(maybe they do have something, but its jus tht to me, its nothing)... aiyahz dont knoe what to say to them, sometimes as much as i want to say things to booast their morale, it might have the opposite effect it will show them more tht they dont have it... i knoe reaching this part of the blog u guys are confused..
nvm la.. thts all for today... its all in the mind people!!!! only if u had been through this shit, then u will understand why i say its all in the mind...
looking at my dad when he lost 1 million dollars on stocks when his asset at tht time was 1.4 million, he still went through it and did not see him cry or super depress.. i guess experience plays a part...
for now, i dont think any one can bring me down.. i have everything tht i can have for a teenager now.. what else do i want? really nothing much more.. happy with my life for now la, maybe hence the blog of "confidence" .. haha.. ciaoz..
and yet, as confident as i am now, its not forever, and i am scared that the day when i am fall is coming... the higher u go, the harder u fall...
Andry at 3:48 PM well, today is i got 5 out of 100 for my test.. thts how bad i got la.. i knoe thts the region i am going ot get.. jus hate memory work... dont knoe why, but since young, never been good in memory work la....
nothing much to blog also la, jus very tired today la...
maybe a few things abt the babe from my class huh?? hehe.. so far seeing her almost everyday, i have yet to see her wear the same clothes or even if have, she has too many until i 4got liao!!! hehe.. thts the babe for u la...
dont knoe wht also, now almost everyday eat at 1130, then eat at 4 and then eat at 7 and then eat at 1 am... dont knoe whats wrong with me manz... very fast hungry la... jus ate 3 hours ago and i am so damn hungry now...
ok la, no thoughts today as too tired, mentally tired.. ciaoz..
Andry at 3:40 PM sometimes i think, if i do update every day abt my blog, my readers will not be able to follow... but u knoe what i think, well, too bad, cause i am sure tht my close frens will be interested in what i have to say even though maybe the will jus read only the latest entry as it is too long.. but my thinking is tht if its my close fren, then they'll read some.. and when i coe to think abt it, i rather have my close fren read what i have to say then any other people la...
i realised girls is not abt money, although u need to at least provide the minimum, and girls are not the most important thing in life... and i also realised tht last time when i told my fren how wonderful my previous looked, he laughed and said she was ok looking(tht was when i jus broke up), and said to me, andry, last time when i broke off, i also think my ex damn damn choi... but now, once u over her, like i did, i think she look ok la... its like tht".. then i keep insisitng how pretty my ex and shit, and he jus laughed at me and say, u are jus like me last time.. everything... haha... and now, i do agree with what he have to say manz... i guess when u are in love, the person can jus look so good... i am sure those experienced people whom read my blog will understand huh?...
ok la, thts all for today... currently listening to a song called "life got cold".. damn nice song, so better check it out.. take care manz..
my mum jus called me and wanted to borrow from me 500 dollars... to gamble in the ship.. i kinda pissed ...
Andry at 8:31 AM
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